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by gwoponese

Tahani

Numb. That's how I felt; numb

He did this to me. He broke me. He caused all of this. This pain, this grief, this eternal anguish

He had me high on his love on and the affection he gave me. The way he made sure I knew I was beautiful, and smart, and strong

I was comfortable around him, I could be myself, I never felt more happy, I never smiled so much.

The love he showed me had me waking up everyday knowing that day was going to be a good day. Even if something bad did happen I knew I'd be okay because we handled it together

But it's crazy how the same person who can make you feel so happy can also turn around and make you feel the complete opposite

I became sad and angry. I felt betrayed and deceived. I felt unloved

He's selfish for what he did

For what he did to me. For how he left me; broken

But no matter how I felt then or now I will never bring myself to hate him because I've learned hurt people hurt people and I doubt he intended to hurt me, but he did

I want to give him the benefit of the doubt because I know he has been through so much and so many things we're probably racing through his head

But it still hurts to know that all of this is because of him. All of this pain is because of him. Even the pain I inflict on myself

But maybe I'm just trying to find someone to blame for my how I feel because I dont want to think that maybe I'm just dragging on how I feel

Maybe it's not that serious, I don't know

But he did. He hurt me. It's all like a domino affect that all started from him

But I can't hate him for what he did; at least not fully.I'll never hate him..like that. Matter of fact I love him. So much

But what else could you expect from a daddy's girl

I don't know how I could love and hate my Father at the same time. But that's the case

He did this to me
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Hey y'all :)

Sorry I been gone so long but the next chapter is coming soon