My Untold Tales As An Nobody ( dropped opps.)

chapter 1 ( hour 1). -'A life like an empty can'

'A desire to die'
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Hour: 10:59
Date: 12 . 12 . ---------
Dear diary,

*My name is Erito Kashiruga.
and I want to die.*

I have no purpose in this world.
each paychecks rolls in, indicates that I only survived for this month. I have nothing to begin with, my father kicked me out of the house saying I'm a burden. The truth is, he is a bastard that only knew how to get his way to a woman and getting drunk all day long

Mother left us to rot, since then, I do not know where her current whereabouts but I don't care anymore. I'm just tired of life. I've decided to take my own life at exactly 10 hours from now!

-end.-

Haaa.. what am I going to do now. Boss expect me to finish all of this work pile of paper. He is going to kill me if I don't meet his expectations. Fuck this job, I'm going to commit suicide anyways, what good does money worth to a soon to be dead boy.

I'm only 18, I should waste my time partying, getting drunk, and playing games. Not working in an sweat shop type of company that promises me nothing but absolute crap.

If only mother was here..

No, that would not change anything. I will become a burden to her anyways, so why bother. I have a ending that I want to face and I'm slowly running out of time. Therefore, I should make a bucket list before I kick the bucket. Heh.

[ A few minutes later]

Alright! That should be all there is to it, I'm quite impressed of myself for creating such a 'master piece' .

[ My Bucket LIST. ]
1. ==========
2. carnival.
3. hiking.
4. Love
[5. suicide. ]

Fufufu~ a master piece indeed coming from a boy who never got a chance to experience school life. Ah, I should have not said that.
Now I just want to die by a rope.. Although-

'I slap myself at the cheek'

I can't get side tracked now can I? I want to die in a very beautiful way, the sun shines and bathe me in a golden coloured view. That for me, will be a true beautiful death. A 'humane' death that is.

But.
Something snapped in my head.

"I- just for this once."

I looked around my room, my bath room, my kitchen, and my drawer searching for something.. then-

[ Got a rope and a dull knife ]

this will be my first doing this, and will be my last time. If I'm correct, I need to hard boil this rope for arround 15 minute to make it more stronger. Alright it is what it is.

1 seccond..

39 seccond..

1 minute..

4 minute and 29 seccond..

"Okay I'm hella' bored. what should I do now while waiting."

-suddenly-

The dull knife in my hand gives me an idea. Im at lost for words, how can I think such an stupid thing that I'm about to do.

"Look how beautiful I have gotten"

I started to cut my finger but I realised that the knife itself were too dull to function properly.
As a human, I did any human would do in this situation. It is to cut my finger trying to make it bleed ofcource! Each attemps of cuts are getting faster and faster. Each cuts is getting more painful, bruise quickly turn into small cuts until