BIG RANT AND BIG TRIGGER WARNING FOR RAPE
I've never judged you or hated you for not doing anything at the time, but now, now I hate you for judging me
I know you love him more and he'll always be your son but he's a rapist, he took my sanity and my innocence, he took my joy and happiness
He knew I didn't want it and was too young to understand but he didn't care
But now that I stand up for myself and refuse to talk to him you're mad at me?
He might be your son but I'm your daughter
I suffered alone for years
I'm still suffering
I still can't sleep because of the feeling of his hands on my skin
I still can't sleep because of the memories replaying in my head because they're not complete
I still suffer because I can't remember everything
And you want me to be okay with him? And to talk to him?
He ruined me and you helped
For some twisted reason I still love you but I can't deal with this anymore
If taking you out of my life is what I need then that's what I'll do
You have all broken me beyond repair and you don't even realize it
