The Heartbreak Prince Sebastian Sallow

Chapter 27: Feelings

Earlier that day - Sebastian POV

I stared off into the deep blue of the wide windows of the so-called aquarium in our common room. Watching as the fish occasionally came by the window, their eyes following me as I watched them swim happily by. I could see why everyone thought we would see mermaids here. We are deep enough where it could potentially be possible and the tails the fish have could resemble one if you didn't look closely enough.

My ink had continued to drip down on the parchment, I huffed in frustration as I crumbled up the paper, throwing it on the floor. Joining paper number 10. 

I sunk deeper into the dark leather chair watching the bubbles of the window go up to the surface. I felt like I was drowning. I wasn't good at this. 

I heard a crunching sound as my ears perked up at the noise. Looking up to see Ominis stepping on one of the many pieces of paper on the floor with a confused look on his face. He held his wand lower to the ground, picking up the parchment before turning to throw it in a trash can nearby. 

"Merlin Sebastian, you can write a letter, can't you? You can't be that daft." Ominis spoke as he returned to the seat across from me. His body being engulfed by the chair as he sank into the deep leather. 

I sighed deeply. "I don't know how others do this for a living, it's absolutely infuriating."

Ominis softly laughed. "Oh come on, you can't tell me you haven't written a love letter before."

I huffed in annoyance. "It's not a love letter Ominis. I just....I feel like after all that's happened I-"

"You feel like you need to explain yourself? Since when did you decide her feelings were more important than yours? I'm surprised Sebastian, you normally don't care about anyone but your bloody self or Anne." Ominis stated. 

I glared at him, watching his hand go up to rest on his cheek, his smirk landing on his face knowing he had struck a nerve with me. 

"You literally are just as much as a pain in my ass as she is. You know I wouldn't have to do this if you and Anne hadn't barged in on us the other day. I wouldn't have to go through this bloody letter if you guys would have just waited longer outside before spying." 

"Spying?! Oh for merlin's sake, if it was that important to you why didn't you just rush after her?" 

I paused. Looking back over at the outside of the window, watching the kelp sway back and forth in the water. 

I sighed heavily, rubbing my hand over my face. Already exhausted of this conversation. 

"I couldn't. Not after what she told me."

"You want to know what I think?" Ominis asked, sitting up slightly in his chair.

"No, but I bet you are going to tell me anyway." 

Ominis chuckled slightly to himself. "You're afraid Sebastian. You're afraid of feeling anything at all because what scares you more is if you'll lose it instead. You've kept her at a safe distance this entire time, even in the beginning of the year you rushed to her aid on multiple occasions without her even having to ask. You-"

"What was I supposed to do? Let her drown or let her continue to hurt herself!?" I shouted slightly at him. 

Ominis mouth smiled as he leaned further towards me. "Thats my point you good for nothing dim wit, you care about her and that scares you. I saw how you were when she was in the hospital, you were a complete and utter reck."

"Because of me! I lashed out at her because my damn emotions getting the better of me, including with trying to hurt her in the process! The fact that she is able to even look at me is.... unbelievable." I sighed deeply, letting my head fall back on the chair. 

"Sebastian.... " Ominis sighed. "You've been my friend all these years, and I have never, and I meant it, NEVER seen you this bent out of shape. Trust me when I say this and I'm only going to say this once so listen." he said.

I opened my eyes, looking at him as his white eyes pierced through mine. 

"She's a rare gem, one that many don't see. I'm blind and I can tell that she shines brightly to anyone that's near her. Her smile, her laugh, the way she cares is enough to light up any dark room. Look at what she's done for you, what she did for Anne. What she is continuing to do for you. She is willing to push down any wall to just get to you because she generally cares about you. There aren't many people like that anymore Sebastian...... not many would have gone to those lengths." 

I took in his words carefully, feeling my heart break as I continued to think about all the things she's done for me. Especially for Anne. I sighed in despair, wanting nothing more to just run to her and tell her how stupid I've been. It's just never been that simple. 

"I know.....and your right." I said, sighing deeply as I looked down at the parchment. 

"As much as I relish in hearing those words come out of your mouth, I can't express it enough. Get your damn act together before somebody else realizes what she is." His voice trailing off at the end.

I watched as he looked off into the distance, his white eyes focusing on the other students starting to flood into the common room. Realization struck me, watching his sad eyes as he bit the inside of his cheek.

"Wait don't tell me you-"

Ominis stood quickly, coming over to my side of the chair grabbing ahold of my shoulder with his right hand, squeezing slightly. 

"Write the damn letter Sebastian, meet with her and tell her. She deserves that much." he said. He smiled briefly down at me before walking away. My eyes following him as he exited out of the common room, back out into the hallways of the castle. My heart feeling as if it was getting pulled in multiple different directions. Anne, Ominis and Alora. Multiple scenarios filling my head as I looked down at the blank parchment. 

I breathed in deeply, grabbing my quill and dabbing it in ink as I shook myself out of my thoughts.

"Here goes nothing."