I'm going to be me for a minuet and just vent this overwhelming brick inside my chest so bare with my please.
I have lived years in fear of how I look who I am where I am how I walk how I talk what people think what people see what everyone wants me to be and its so fucking tiring yet I can't stop.
I was treated like shit by the person who brought me into this world as it is and it felt like kicking a fucking innocent baby.
I lost the most important person to me and it broke my heart into millions. I lost the person who spent nights and nights fixing what some else broke inside of me. I lost my hope my faith my light but more importantly my friend and it fucking sucks knowing their here and their willing to talk but i can't fix the great distance that's been put between us.
I cried screamed hurt raged and broke down over so much shit that's happening in my life right now and I honestly don't know how much more I can take.
