Nyx

Why me?

I end up at a restaurant across town.

I order Risotto for me and pizza for Lev.

He's obsessed.

About an hour later, Adelina becomes hungry.

I go to the public restroom with Lev and Adelina and breastfeed Adelina.

Lev plays on his tablet.

After about 15 minutes, Adelina is content and happy.

Me and the kids go back to the car, and I order a hotel.

I get a few weird looks but in the end, Money is worth more than youth.

There is 2 beds so Lev has a bed and me and Adelina have a bed.

I'll just put 2 pillows between Adelina so she doesn't roll off.

I bathe both kids and put them in their pjs.

I tuck in Lev and kiss his cheek.

I turn in Masha and bear for Lev and get Adelina settled too.

I go to the bathroom and see no texts or calls from Dimitri.

I close my eyes.

I'm so tired of this crap!

I don't go to work because Dimitri doesn't want me too.

I don't assassinate because Dimitri doesn't want me too.

I don't volunteer because Dimitri doesn't want me too.

Well guess what Dimitri, I don't care!

God, That felt good!

Even if it's just me in my head, I've been needing to say that since the day we met.

I rub my stomach and get off of the floor.

I go to the bed and lay down.

I kiss Adelina's head and close my eyes.

Adelina starts crying, waking me up.

I pick her up and rock her back and forth.

I whisper things in her ear to make her settle down.

I give her my breast and she immediately takes it.

I hiss in pain when she bites down.

I mean my head against the head board.

I hate Italy.

I know I shouldn't blame Italy for my sad past but I can't help it.

Italy is where all my problems happened.

Italy sucks.

Sighing, I close my eyes.

I hear shuffling and feel Lev's small body snuggle into my waist.

I wrap my free arm around him.

I hear his breathing start slowing down.

About 10 minutes later, Adelina is asleep also. Sighing I put her down in between the pillows again and pull the blanket over both of them.

I kiss both of their cheeks and go to the bathroom.

I throw all of my guts up.

Do I know why I'm throwing up?

No.

Crap!

I forgot I was pregnant for a second.

I'm so sleep deprived, I've got to sleep.