Features || Junhan

47

"2 more weeks until Xdinary Heroes debut!" Aera calls out with a wide smile on her face. I nod my head at her with a small smile on my own, going back to replacing a string in my guitar since I did break it while practicing.

"Aren't you happy that they're debuting soon, Nari?" Chunja asks with a small frown. I nod my head with a thumbs up, then going back to my guitar. Chunja sighs as he points over to me. "Guys, somethings wrong with Nari."

"Here we go again.." I mumble to myself, setting my guitar down as I raise my head, looking at the members. "Nothing's wrong. I'm just tired after practice."
"We literally just practiced one song." Yuki says as she takes a seat beside me, then showing me hee phone screen. 'Is it Junhan?'
I shake my head as she then nods, puttering hee phone back into her pocket.
"What's going on?"

"In 2 weeks I'm going to the States to have my heart transplant." I say, resting my head on Yuki's shoulder. "But I don't want to go. I know that there's a risk of me dying during that ransplant and that means I'm leaving you guys and this band.."
"Nari.." Dasom softly calls out, going to the other side of me and hugging me tightly. "I really don't know what to say I'm bad at comforting so please just take this hug."

"What she was about to say," Nabi calls out as she pushes Dasom away from me, crouching down infront of me. "Can you at least try the transplant? It's better to die trying then to die because you didn't try."

"And who knows, maybe the transplant go go really well and you can come back to us!" Yuki then says. I shake my head, letting some tears slowly trail down my cheeks.

"I want to keep preforming though, you guys know how much being on stage means to me!"

"Then why don't you have one last stage before going?" Dasom the asks. "It'll be just your song. You'll be the only one singing and we'll be playing it for you!"

"That's a good idea." Chunja says, Nabi agreeing with her. "Why don't we get a start on the song now?"

"I have this song in my notebook.." I mumble, wiping my cheeks as I turn around to my bag, zipping it open and taking out my lyric notebook and flipping through a few pages. "It's called 'Not Mine'."

"Let's do that one then!" Nabi says, taking a look at the pages and furrowing hee eyebrows at me. "Damn these lyrics are deep.. Who hurt you?"

"Why? What's the song about?" Yuki asks as she also takes a peek at the lyrics and mumbling a few lines out.
She then looks at me with wide eyes before pulling me up onto my feet and dragging me outside of the band room, closing the door with a small frown.

"What gives?!" I groan, pulling my wrist out of Yuki grasp. She then points over to the lyrics.

"Those lyrics are about Junhan, aren't they?"

I shake my head with wide eyes, then scoffing as I cross my arms over my chest.
"I hope you remember that the lyrics I write are my thoughts and feelings."

"Oh really? Then let's look over these lyrics of yours, shall we?" She then takes the notebook out of my hands, then showing me some lines and reading it out.

'How can I go back to our beginning? When we were looking at the same place, then when we had the same heart.'

'I hope you don't know it, these feelings, even though I love you, I still feel alone.'

I slowly raise my head up to Yuki with wide eyes as I snatch the notebook out of her hands, sliding it down the halls.

"Those lyrics are for Junhan, aren't they?!" Yuki whisper shouts as she points over to the notebook which now being picked by the person who I least wanted to see it..
Yuki then runs over to the boy, taking the notebook out of his hands and hiding it in her jacket.

"Don't look at these, Junhan!"