Unholy -Conor Maynard fan fic

Chapter 12

Evie pov
A few weeks went by and the last time I saw conor was when I was drunk we text a few times but it wasn't him it was me that distanced myself and Jack had told me what pain he was in from me not returning any calls but I just shut myself out for some wired reason me and Conor start talking and we end up lost in the lust and our sexual attraction between each other and forget about the talking

My phone started to buzzing I look

'In coming call from Conor Maynard'

I declined.

I can't bare to see him I once told him I can never be his friend only more than friends but if that isn't possible I can't see him at all and I started crying my heart is hurting but our love seems only physical and sexual I mean the man hasn't taken me on a date we can't spend one night talking and cuddling and watching movies! Just sex!

I just broke down in my dark bedroom and cuddled up in my duvet

"Awh conor what have done to me"I cried out to myself and for about half an hour I cried and cried then I got out of bed and brushed my hair and put it in a ponytail and did some skincare and put on joggers and a matching gray cropped vest top and as I sit sofa on on my laptop I see a cover by Conor,anth and Corey

"You really shouldn't have gave me a key"I hear Jack voice I turn and see him stood there

"How long you been-"i said

"Just enough to hear the song"he said I sighed

"So tell me you listen to him feature on a cover but you won't text or call? Why?"he asked as I moved my feet so he could sit next to me I fell silent to gather my thoughts

Jack owes and explanation but he is the bother of Conor but also my best friend

"I don't think conor wants me like I want him"I said he was confused

"What but you said you're-"Jack started to say

"I know talking yes we do but it always leads to...well how do I put this lightly"i said shakily as I was holding back my tears

"Sleeping with each other"he sighed I nodded

"I can't keep doing this"I said and cried

"Then say no"he said I shook my head

"Jack it's not that simple"I cried and cried

Yes it sounds stupid the part I didn't explain is I can say no to having sex but as much as he wants me like that so do I and it's like I can't say no but I know I'll hurt myself in the long future

"Evie you can just put you're foot down"Jack said and I sighed

"I can't! Okay I can't! Because I want it too but I know deep down it hurt me in the future and I know he only misses the sec not me"i said he shook his head

"You blind then why would he rip up and expensive hoodie of his"Jack said

"To keep me happy!"I cried

"Evie I'm sorry but you're wrong"he said my anger boiled I stood up and walked around

"Right so if I'm so wrong! Why hasn't taken me on a date! Why do we meet only late at each other apartment because he's only after one thing! Look I know he's you're brother but he's hurt me more than my ex it feels like now!"i exclaimed