I savored all the hours of freedom and solitude—
the only time I could get rid of thoughts that kept me unglued;
I unchained my happiness with songs to keep my smile at its best
until a melody was played that took my mind to you.
that guitar tune I hated from the song that got lost on my playlist—
although it was beautiful,
light-hearted, never awful,
but it reminds me of the night you were dancing with somebody else;
I'm still jaded about things I should've let go of from the outset,
the night she took your heart away,
at the grand soirée—
it was the only time I saw your face turn golden like the sunset.
this evening will be spent with another river down to my ears
thinking of the future like a goddamn seer
and never seeing myself standing with joy at the altar
unless it's you who'd take a vow to be mine forever.
and then my mind reminded me all of a sudden—
this night should be for rest from dwelling in the hurting;
so with my hand, I wiped off all the tears that were falling,
and closed my eyes to satisfy the need of my soul for healing.
— JAYVIE
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that feeling every night (Completed)
Poetry5th Poetry Anthology a compilation of diary entries, but in the most poetic way possible. I'm glad I can share these emotions with you, even if they capture the unhappy moments in my life - that feeling every night. 🩶 Date Published: August 16, 2023
