A parallel intersection

Chapter 1

FINDINGS OF PAST

Avantika Pov :

A was sitting near my window, wondering how strange life has become. I had been in a relationship only for about 1year and one fine day he just texted me, “ I know, you love me but I don’t think this would work”. I didn’t know what to reply. It was during the time of the cyclone, there was no electricity. It was past 12:00 am. I just didn't know what I did  wrong to make it fail.
Sometimes, life gives you situations where even you don’t know if this won’t work what else would. Probably this is one of these scenes.

The following morning, my health deteriorated.
I heard mom calling me,” Avanti wakeup, it's past your bedtime.”
This moment was everything, I had no energy to get out of bed and carry on with chores. Yesterday night even the inside got all wet. The tears hadn’t dried up, it was evident. The chest was all burdened with a new type of fear and failure.

Later on he called, maybe a sympathetic call. But for what I knew it was to make me feel guilty.
He said,” Whatever had happened was because I didn’t want to hurt you, but you never understood so I had to put an end to this. We can stay in touch and I am there for you.”
After a long minute,he spoke again. “Avantika, you have to say something, this is what you always do. You never understand, you always want to just wait for things to happen.”
At this moment I decided to speak. “I thought you had called to apologize. But here again you and your nasty blame games.”
“Avanti, please not again. I just wanted to make sure, you are holding up well. You know this is all hard for me also.”
I said while sobbing,”If it is hard why do you want to give up Moksh, You love me don't you? You never really cared and now also as usual you want to break it cause, it wasn’t helping you to get over your so-called love….”
He angrily replied,” Avantika just mind your language, just because I dated you doesn’t give you the right to talk about her.  I don’t even know why I dated you. You always want to have fights and never understand. Never call or text me again. I called you to check on you, I do care about you Avanti.” and then he just cut the call.

I tried calling him, but it seems like my tears never worked for him.
I tried to call him a lot of times, but he won’t pick up. I tried texting him.
He didn’t reply to me immediately. But then when he did it just broke my heart into a million pieces. I was used to getting hurt, because I guess my roots to valuing things made me weak and strong.

Well for me, this message was a pain? I couldn’t explain or feel anything.
My eyes wanted to read something that would just make me forget “ I never had any love feelings for you”, so I decided to read a note he had written to me in the past week. The note went like,

Avantika is my avanti , when I cry she wipes it, when I  do some shit in my life she is there to wipe it, I don’t  about true love, and I  know I  am too weak or bad at expressing love, but I  gotta say I love you Avanti very much and also that I  know you  will never ever leave me under any condition I believe even I won't leave you.  We have some special kind of bond right now, I don’t know  what kind of bond but whatever it is, we call it love and I love it and u too. I  just wanna say I'm gonna be there for you forever, and sorry I become jealous sometimes, coz I love you, you  have only right over me, no one else so shut the fuck up and don't see anyone else and yeah I'm sorry I  get angry quickly, but still I would continue loving you again.

This was my comfort place. This has been a part of me for a long period of time.

Suddenly, I was remembering all the moments I had spent with him. It's weird at the moment those happy moments were always torturing the soul of mine.

Mom called me, I had to answer because without that I would have surely made my already worse day, worst.

She asked me if i could walk to the grocery shop and I needed that so bad.
Maybe a walk could make me feel better, so I said yes I will go.

Only if I knew that I would have to take help of walks to gain my sanity back, would I have done a long back.

After I came back home, I felt nothing. I always knew this was going to happen. Regardless of his repetitive mistakes, physical and mental torture I just hoped that he would turn into the man I wanted him to be. But the irony is he turned me into the woman he wanted and I hated.

It was the journey of all fire walks, but I knew I was ice and had to melt so I could put off the fire for myself.

That night I lost a younger version of myself and created a version that little Avanti wanted for like an eternity.

I was happy with him, the way he used to understand me was quite different. People maybe that's why saying love makes you feel different.

I told myself "I won't be in love until someone makes me believe in love again.
Until someone who never promises but always shows up, someone who values me as a person and never ever makes me feel I was a rebound again".

Memories with Moksh still haunt me especially the incident when......, I was lost in the thoughts when dad called me.

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Thank you so much for reading ❤️
Let me know what you guys think of Moksh and what was the incident she was talking!!!!

Lots of love,
Avantika ❤️