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Alive it's a lie

as the time pass the gloomy mood around cale seems to disappear but is allies knew him to well, they must have made it oblivious for him to notice and change his behavior.

because right now he act like he did when there was no threat immediate but it seems worse..

cale had a talk yesterday with kim rok so and one of rok so question had left a bitter feeling in his stomach.

this night he decided to take a walk to change his thoughts, he needed to get them out so he sing unawares of the fact an old dragon sense him the same with a quiet assassin were now following him.

Pictures on the wall
Swear they're all getting grayer

"uh? does he means literally, because they aren't.." says ron in a low voice that normal people wouldn't have heard

Don't feel a thing at all
But no one's even aware 'cause
I just try to smile
Through all the pain

he doesn't feel anything?! what cause this to happen? both adults are trying to make sense on what happened though cale who is singing.

"How you been?"
"Oh I'm doing great"

he lie about this like always, this is why they don't trust him on his health.

But please don't
Ask me to promise
'Cause If I were honest

they wait patiently for the next line because they want the truth even if they have an idea

A lie, it's a lie
I may look happy
But I swear that I'm dying on the inside

he.. dying..? eruhaben isn't sure if he meant literally or not because cale's body didn't show any sign of dying but at the same time his body is extremely weak so is it possible?

Survive, survive
I don't know the last time I felt truly alive

...he is still young and...
why? when did it started?

ron and eruhaben felt their hearts stop for a few moments it was hard not to worry for the red hair in front of them when they don't know what to do to help him.

I spend way too much time
Laying in my bed
'Cause I don't wanna deal with my life

he avoiding it by sleeping?! is it a coping mechanism? if yes then what's the cause?..

Ohhh
A lie, it's a lie
I just wanna feel alright

"we all want you alright young master.. just let us help you..." ron voice sounded desperate and full of worry

eruhaben was trying to analyze the cause, the consequences and if it is one the mental illness he knew because in his opinion it's the last possibility on why, he just needs to find if is guess is correct

Sleep in
'Till afternoon
But I still wake up tired

eruhaben is now certain it is a mental illness problem but which one?

Don't know
What else to do
I feel so uninspired and
Finding motivation never works

problem of motivation, oversleep, fatigue constant...
they are symptoms of depression but is it really the problem of his mental health? or is there more?

Every day feels a little worse
So I just pretend I'm okay
When all I want to say is

cale really felt like each day became threatening around his throat. but he needs to survive, no it just because he cannot die..

he had responsibility to take care of, people's safety to assure, a promise to fulfill even if it was a lie to keep himself going...

A lie, it's a lie
I may look happy

he try his best to look healthy and happy for his family to stop worrying but it don't seem to work

But I swear that I'm dying on the inside
Survive, survive

this is what he had done since he was a child, the only things so deeply inside of him that can't be broken, an instinct as natural as breathing.

I don't know the last time I felt truly alive
I spend way too much time
Laying in my bed

he wanted to rest, his mind and body to rest because the way he live is to hard on his health.

'Cause I don't wanna deal with my life
Ohhh
A lie, it's a lie
I just wanna feel alright

the only things he want while enjoying the little things of life with his family.
a bittersweet smile appear on his face thinking about it, he never seems to be able to have that.

cale continue his walk for about 20 minutes before going back to bed still unawares of the two old man following all along.

the next morning he was awake with a sweet tea instead of a lemonade, the kid average 9 year old more attached then usual and everyone was like waiting, watching for something.

of course they react like that due to thier prior meeting for his health where eruhaben explain his theory about his mental health, and since then they all begin to analyze all his moves to help eruhaben and mila who carefully study all medical stuff for the next few days.

but no one will tell him.

and like always he ignores it.
_________________________________________ song: kyle hume
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actually shorter than i expect it but enjoy it nonetheless, there may be error in the grammar so i apologize