songfic tcf

conversation

after a week of fredo hug or simply holding his hand cale doesn't feel weird out every time it happened but he still don't understand why it started

the GoD didn't really give him a clue or the location of Lee soo hyuk reincarnation but he will find him either way

"my child are you alright? you seem lost in your thoughts.."

his thought got cut off but this looks of worries clear on fredo face is not... uncomfortable

"tell me cale how are you feeling?"

"i.." he can't say it somehow he can't

fredo is confused but he can see cale trying to figure something after being unable to talk, maybe a little push and he will be honest?

"how about you tell me in general how do you feel since a few years ago?"

should he? it is a time of peace but why does he feel so vulnerable he never felt this way about his emotions

Feeling like I'm broken
Stranded in the open

fredo is not so shocked anymore but his son cale henituse looking so vulnerable and lost and him saying it, is heartbreaking

Nowhere to run from the end
I was living hopeless
And I was barely coping

coping.. the way he always call himself the alcohol the distance at arm length his fear he talked about in the last song

Don't wanna sing that song again This time
Maybe I could just act nice
Make believe that it's all fine
Nothing wrong with my mind

another coping mechanism he lie about it not only to us but himself as well

I said twice
Don't you look me in my eyes
I'm talking soft to hide big lies
Nothing wrong with my mind

what lie are you hiding cale? what big lie are you talking about?

Conversations in my head
They're always changing what I said
Conversations in my brain
They're always making me safe

conversation in his head?! does that mean he has voices inside his head?

fredo is trying to calm himself his son did say there are voice in his head but he also said that they are keeping him safe.  he needs to ask directly after this

I try to turn the pages
Words to fill the spaces
I'm by myself losing touch
Seen a lot of places
Unfamiliar faces

is this when he started to change from his trash day that they were talking about?

In my thoughts I've said enough

cale really had enough, he had wanted so hard to end but nothing goes his way

This time
Maybe I could just act nice
Make believe that it's all fine
Nothing wrong with my mind Conversations in my head
They're always changing what I said
Conversations in my brain
They're always making me safe

the voices of his ancient power really keep him safe form the dangerous situation and they are always here to keep him sane

I'm so sad
I'm so blue
I'm so tired of pushing through
Im so crazy
I'm so shaken up
And I don't know what to do

that it he was honest to a certain amount but does he continues or...

I'm so glad
That's not true
I'm so over changing to Something weird when I'm waking up
And I don't know what to do
I'm so mad that I'm not them
I'm so happy for them too

oh he love them all but he is so mad at them they leave him in responsibility when they couldn't make it out alive and now he had to find their ass

Cause the constant signal's breaking up
And I don't know what to do with

true he doesn't have a signal or anything to contact them and it made him feel lost but he will make it work like always

Conversations in my head
They're always changing what I said
Conversations in my brain
They're always making me safe
Conversations in my head
They're always changing what I said
Conversations in my brain
They're always making me safe

fredo can tell it ends so he ask a few question first
"what voice do you mean...? "

"my ancient power talk to me from time to time" he answered honestly because he feels like it would be nice or the emotional weakness led him to have his guards down

"i see... it is reassuring that it isn't something for your mental health degrading.. do you want me to tell the others?" he asked carefully the trust cale show him is rare and he didn't want to betray that's.

"no.."
"they'll jut worry more usually and it'll be exhausting" he added

"if you want" fredo would've still say some things but not everything the most important one is that showing too much worry made him exhausted he will not say about the ancient power or some of his feelings

"then let's go to sleep do you to cuddle with your father?" he asked a little playfully to ease the mess inside his son head

he didn't expect cale to agreed with him but it will be a secret for him and cale no one gonna know about it
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i actually like cale and fredo father-son relationship so here father fredo comforting his child cale