Kitten in Another World ( ON GOING )

CHAPTER 1 KITTEN

I was terminally ill.
All my life I lived in hospitals, so many medications, test, drugs and a lot of endurance.  I'm so tired seeing my mom crying everytime pain is hitting me hard.

There is no day that I ask from above if I was really destined to be born with this kind of illness. Every night I pray and pray and pray na huwag na akong pahirapan pa ng ganito.

But my prayer was never listened, no matter how I try palagi akong bigo. Gustong gusto ko na makalabas sa hospital na ito pero Hindi ko na kaya pang maglakad. Ang kalahati ng aking katawan ay manhid na, tanging ang sa may taas na bahagi lamang ng aking katawan ang kaya ko pang igalaw.

Aside from constant pain ang tangi ko lang ginagawa para magpalipas ng oras ay ang magbasa ng manga o mga novels. And fantasy romance is one of my favorites genre. I can't help it to wish na paano kung mapasok kaya ako sa Mundo ng mga binabasa ko.

Tulad ng madaming readers imagining things from the story I've read is one of the pleasure I could get. If only I could go inside in their world...

"Kitten Anak? Anong ginagawa mo?"

Natigil ako sa pagiisip ng pumasok si Mama. As usual she's looking so pale, the bags under her eyes is so visible. Dahil sa akin ay wala ng maayos na pahinga si mama.

Mula Ng ma ospital ako ay nasa akin na ang lahat ng atensyon Niya, napapabayaan na niya ang kanyang sarili kaya hindi ko mapigil ang sarili ko na sisihin dahil tila kamalasan lang ang dala ko sa kaniya.

"Kitten gutom kana ba Anak? Dinalhan kita ng mga prutas."

Binaba ko ang phone ko sa aking kandungan. "Ma sana hindi kana nagabala pa, nagpahinga kana lang po sana."

"You've been reading again?" She ask, avoiding what I've said.

"Tinapos ko lang po yung binabasa ko. It's kinda interesting "

I watch as my mom finish preparing what she brought from home.

"Ma alam mo pwede mo na po akong iwan... My time is near. I can feel it"

I don't know if subra bang nabigla si mama sa sinabi ko kasi bigla niyang nabitawan ang hawak nyang Plato.

She inhaled deeply, tears forming with her amber eyes. "J-just what are you saying Kitten Constancia! Please stop saying that!"

"Ma... Let's just face it."

"No Kitten! Lalaban ka pa diba?" She ask in shaky voice. Tears now falling from her.

Hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak ko sa aking phone. If my death is coming I'm hoping na mangyari na agad.

"Ma i- I can't do this anymore. I don't to open my eyes anymore lying in this bed. Seeing you in more pain than what I feel. I think this is enough mama. We've fight enough and I don't think we will won this battle."

A warm hug from my mom is always what I need. She's all I have , my dad left us and had his own family. At first I thought na babalik din siya sa amin eventually pero ano pa nga ba ang babalikan niya? Me? I don't think so.

I don't also think na matatanggap pa sya si mama after he abandoned us. The only reason they are talking is about my health and now that I'm dying ay hindi ko na alam kung magkakausap pa sila.

"My beautiful Kitten... My so so so beautiful daughter. " Hinaplos ni Mama ang pisnge ko habang patuloy pa din siyang lumuluha. "What did we do wrong at pinaparusahan tayo ng ganito? You are such a good child kaya bakit sa iyo pa dumapo ang sakit na ito?"

I smiled to mom. "Mama I think this is bound to happen. I am already blessed because you are my mother. All I want is for you to forgive yourself kasi hindi mo po kasalanan. I love you so so much mama and you are the best mother in the whole wide world."

"And you are the best daughter in the world Kitten. If I would give a chance na ipanganak ka ulit ay pipiliin ko pa din na ikaw ang maging anak ko. "

Pagkatapos ng masinsinang usapan namin ni mommy ay nakatulog ako. For the first time ay tila kaysarap ng aking pagkatulog.

Para akong hinehele, walang masakit sa katawan, at para akong nililipad. I tried to open my eyes pero purong kadiliman lamang ang aking nakita.

Until I blindly white light burst all of a sudden. Naipikit ko ang aking mga mata dahil sa subrang liwanag.

A sudden heat hit me then turn to cold. A shiver run to my whole body as I keep my eyes in what's happening.

" Younger one..."

A sudden voice filled the whole place.

" A soul so bright and clean. A brave and loving one. A fighter and persistent. "

Pinalibot ko ang aking paningin ngunit wala akong makita. "who are you?"

"Young one I heard you- I believe you. Your deepest wish reach me...."

Patuloy ako sa paghahanap kung saan nangngagaling ang boses pero wala akong makita. The voice feel so light to me, it gives me something na hindi ko masabi pero gumagaan ang aking pakiramdam.

"As your soul became free- you will be free. You have a good life but lack in color- a three who had no branch wouldn't prosper. A flower not given a sun energy will wither. A bird who are caved will never learned to fly."

Wala akong maintindihan sa nangyayari. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan ako and incant understand where that voice coming from and what it meant.

Is this my death? Is it happening today? I'm glade I already say my good bye to my mom. I thought it wouldn't hurt like this when I'm gone but thinking my mom being left alone hurt so much.

I wish she will be happy even without me. I wish she would forgive herself. I wish she will learn to love again.

Flashes of memories with my mom hit me. As I cried seeing how see sing me a lullaby, hug me , showering me sweet kisses. I will miss her.

"Your life here is hard but full of love. As you descend in another realm. I hope you find yourself happy. Fight for who you are and show your purest heart."

Again another light hit the whole place but now is different. It's not stopping just what happened earlier. The light lulled me close my eyes have another sweetest dream I think would ever had.

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Noises woke me up from my deep dream. At first I can't understand what they are saying. It seems there is commotion.

" Dearest heaven!! She awake!! She's awake everyone!"

"Close all the window! And pull down the curtains!"

"Hush down Fahra and stay calm. "

I cannot identify who's who is speaking. Pero hindi ko din sila makilala base sa boses nila, it's not the I met many people in the hospital pero the way they speak is new to my ears, I'm just thank full that I can understand what language that are using.

"How can I just down when she's awake after she slept for years! The deities is still helping us. Everyone prepare everything for my daughter. Foods, clothes, everything!"

"Yes ma'am."

My head is hurting sa pakikinig kung ano ba ang pinagsasabi nila. And what daughter??. As I tried to open my eyes a warm hand touch my face.

"My beautiful daughter... Open your eyes for mama hmm. Open your eyes my Kitten."

Just what the hell is going on??.