The goodbyes We wish We said before|Soukoku

Your reasons.....

Ugh,Dazai.

It's been 2 years since that bastard has left.

I'd lie and say I don't even think about him.

But me and Dazai both know that's a lie.

I've gotten over it though.

For the most part.

I still think about him and how he's doing.

But I don't shed a single tear now thinking about it.

I just feel a weight on my chest.

When he first left,I was furious.

Always mad all the time.

But I've learned to understand why he left.

He had a promise to fulfill.

From a friend.

I used to think

Why didn't he take me with him?

Was I not enough for that?

But I've realized now.

That I'm not fit for such a job.

My brain isn't wired for that.

In the Mafia,

Is where I belong.

Dazai must've realized this before.

That's why he didn't take me with him.

I hear stuff from here to there and,

He seems to be happy in the Agency.

He's found a new place to call home.

I won't lie,

I'm happy for him.

It has took me 2 years

To understand

Your reasons.....