No Strings Attached

Chapter 11

Nunew was stretching his arms over his head to loosen the stiff muscles on his back. He was currently at the balcony of his rented room in Hua Hin. He love the cold ocean breeze and how it plays with his soft, blonde hair. He sat on a wooden chair, admiring the beautiful sunrise.

This was stupid. What the hell is he doing? How old is he again? Nine years old? Running away and hiding from things that scares him?

He stood up and went back to his room. He grab his laptop from his bag. He turn the device on and starts to compose an email for his friends and parents. The email will be automotically sent to them on Monday.

No one knows where he went and he knows it was risky. If anything happens to him, they would know where he had been.

He called room service for breakfast. After eating, he quickly took a bath and wore a pair of short shorts, a v neck tee and his swimming trunks that he was supposed to use during the planned weekend getaway with Zee.

He sat down at the balcony again, holding a notebook and a pen. He close his eyes and then look up at the sky.

The sunlight in the morning felt so good on his milky, white skin, so as the cold ocean breeze. It's as if nature is cleansing his soul.
He opened his eyes and stared at his notebook. He started to write the things that bothers him.

He had to stop seeing Zee. Kimmy is right. Zee was somewhat sweet and attentive and yes, he could deny all he wanted but deep inside, he knew he was beginning to hope they could become something more. And that's the main problem.

He doesn't know if Zee Pruk was a real, consummate sadist and just wanted to play with his feelings.

Because right from the very start, their agreement is very clear. Zee told him what he wanted and what he could give him. Nunew was a person who wanted things clear and precise; he wanted things spelled out. Zee made it all clear from the start and he appreciated that.

But he can't continue their agreement as fuck buddies anymore. Not now that his feelings for Zee is more than sexual attraction. It was not fair for both of them. He would inevitably self destruct and he would bring Zee down with him.

He wrote all of that. He needed to see his reasons so he wouldn't forget... So when he started to get confused or lost or become weak, he could look at them again and remember.

After writing, he felt something heavy lifted off from his chest. Not just lifted off but disappearing completely. But it was fine with him since he was already familiar with the feeling of emptiness.
He smiled bitterly. He stood up and went back inside his room.

He spend the day on the beach. He swim and just floating on the cool water of Hua Hin.
He thought of his parents and his many failed relationships. He thought of his friends and the children at Angel's Haven. He thought of Zee.

He stared at the beautiful, bright sky. Light and darkness were fighting for dominance, making the sky looks like it is bleeding. The water feels more cooler and he can only hear a few voices of children playing on the shore.

He decided to went back to his room. The time he spent on the cool ocean makes him feel fine and he felt that he can face anything now.

He walk towards the shore and when he look up. He saw him... Looking at him intently with his dark, almond shape eyes...

Startled, He almost trip on the water. With the wind in Zee's hair and the blood red sky behind him, Zee was a dark and overpowering presence. Something inside of him become needy again.

"What are you doing here?" He just can't stabilize his voice the way he wants it to be.

Zee's step was big towards him and just before he could step back, the latter already grab his arms.