Burning Sensation

CHAP XV

EMILY'S POV

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!
I am sitting in Alpha's room, sitting on his bed wearing his clothes, I can feel his strong toxic and so addicting cologne all around me like a blanket covering me.

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!
How did this happen?

I look around his room again, I have been doing this since I knew it was Alpha's room. It's neat, spotless clean. It's huge with dark gray walls but the wall where his ensuite bathroom is connected is painted white.

I am sitting on his comfy king-sized bed, it's soft like one you would imagine a king to lay in.

It's made with black sheets with a dark grey duvet. I know the room on my left leads to his bathroom which is as amazing and full of luxury as this room and then on my right a little far from where I am sitting there is another room. I have to say that's where his closet is.

I have an urge to peek, a very strong desire to do just that but every time I tried to step down on my feet to walk to it, I could picture him capturing me doing just that.
What would I say if I were caught?

I could not live through the embarrassment of that.
I have a perfect clear picture in my mind of him catching me sneaking into his closet. I shake my head a few times wanting to drop such thoughts out of my head before I even dared to go through with them.

But good thing he walks back in the room before I went crazy with what I was thinking. I instantly tense again at his presence but I try to act as cool as I can be.

I reach for the sweet strawberry tea he made for me and take a sip.
"Sorry, that might have been too long." I shrug shaking my head. "It's no problem."

He walks closer to me and when he hands me my purse, I try so hard to not make contact with his hand but it's impossible because this man, his all being draws me in, in a way I am not familiar with. It's like he is a magnet and I am a pitiful metal being pulled in every time we are together. All in a way that is all new to me, a way I know nothing about.

One part of it calls me in, to come and take a look and try to get to know and understand what that is but another part just tells me to run so far away.
There is nothing here for me.

"Here."

"Thank you," I rest the mug back down on the nightstand and then dig for my phone in my purse.
I am so clumsy doing such simple things as those. My hands shake, every inch of my skin that is covered with hair is now on the stand.

I can feel a strong, intense gaze on me and it has me so tense I could cut through tension.

But finally, I find my phone and it's not off thankful.

I have several and by several I mean by a hundred maybe missed calls from my mother then others and texts from Benjamin.

Ariel, Liam, James, Charlotte, Aurora, and others also texted and called. I ignore all of those and just call my mother.
The call dials in my ear but with a certain gaze that has me curling my toes, I stand up and pace a little as I wait for my mother to pick up.

"Hel..."

"Emily, are you okay baby? Where are you? Why are you not home already? Where are you? I talked to Benjamin and he told me you guys didn't have an issue to solve, where are you?"

"Okay, first take a breath Mom okay? I'm okay." I say urging her to calm down. She sounds so agitated.

I can hear her breathing in and breathing out.
"I was so worried about you." I hear her say after a moment. I turn to glance at Alpha for a second.
How do I tell her am in Alpha's home?