The Fragile Emotions

Whispers of darkness

"You deserve to die"
"You're ugly girl"
"You always disappoint us"
"She is so rude"
"She is so ewww...how could anyone would like her"
"My God are you even a girl you don't know how to show attitude"
"Loving you was my mistake"
"You're unworthy"
"You deserve only worst things"
"You're so fake gosh why you even exist "
"I don't even like you girl you were just my timepass "
"You think anyone would love you go and look at the mirror "
"Don't you think you smile too much"
These whispers of darkness are erupting my mind,my soul,my heart and I couldn't take it anymore please someone save me I am
falling in the darkness.

When all we wanted was a comforting hand in our shoulders who says "Everythings gonna be alright my love" but all we get was "You disappointment us always".
She craved for love,a love which can bloom her empty heart but there was nobody who would gave her that
Whenever anyone would ask her"Are you ok?" o my how she wanted to cry and hug that person but she would always smile and say "I am fine"
She was so deeply falling into darkness that even her loved one hurted her still she didn't mind as she was used to pain,she was used to fake people,she was used to heart break,she was used to hatred,but she was never used to love,"I want someone God who would give me the warmth I never recieved"

The darkness always whispered in her ears still she never fared it cause she loved it as her lover
She was scared of the fake lightness of people who would say words which can stab the heart.
She was not afraid of death
She was afraid of life
She was afraid to love someone cause whomever she loved,they never loved her back
Sometimes she thought she was the problem and then her head started hurted like hell, the whispers of darkness screaming at her,She was feeling like somebody was choking her to death as it was getting hard to breathe
She can no more breathe .

She thought it was the dead end but no she was again in the fake lightness of people but the darkness is not whispering at her and then reality hit her hard
She is so used to whispers of darkness and pain that now she feels numb sadly she glanced at the dark midnight sky without stars and Moon and she whispered "Dear God,am I bad?,am I ugly?, why everybody leaves me?, why I like someone and they don't like me back?,Is it too hard to love me ? ,I too want someone to hug me and draw stars around my scars,I too want to be someone's but I feel numb.
Please the whispers of darkness are killing me , please help me I want to be loved so bad please"and with that she closed her eyes.

Somebody saw her and said even if the light is not with you I will be the darkness in your life and love you forever
You don't know how grateful I am when somebody likes me the darkness more than the light ,it was always fake anyways.