I feel that day coming fast
On that day I may not last
So this is my battle cry
For on that day my only wish to die
Every year it just gets harder
While others grow big stomachs and grow larder
For me I just put on that smile
While in my mind it's another file
Of all the years of yesterdays past
On that day it's hard to last
So like the Grinch I will say
Fuck you Christmas go away
It used to mean oh so much
All the people, that loving touch
For me it's not like that atall
On that day I barely crawl
Nobody ever sees that
Its not just my day
For I bring my biggest smile
Yet in my mind I pray
Not for the gift you think
Don't try and understand
I look back at years before
Wanting to disband
I make sure my cup ran full
On those major days
For Christmas is not fun for me
It's then I start to pray
