Dear Diary

23 December 2023

Dear Diary

My day is like no other these days, waking up in the afternoon, and having no strength to do house chores, but eventually, I did do some dishes that needed to be done. My mother and sister were going to work till 6.30 pm or in other words 18.30. I am on my period at this moment, but you gotta "fake it till you make it" when it comes to emotions and expressions.

Today I promised myself to outside but instead, I was going to be inside the house with a bad cold. And I needed to have my package delivered but yesterday they emailed me that they couldn't and that I needed to get it at a shop that they are special have to pick up packages.

So I texted a friend of mine that lives close to that spot of delivery, I asked him if he wanted to get it and he did, he texted me that he couldn't deliver it at the work where I, my mother and my sister work with him, that is what I suggested but has a bicycle problem, so I said that my mom would get it after work, but unfortunately they came and didn't go there, just going home like usual. I was disappointed in them that they didn't have done because I needed that package for tomorrow. My mom said that I and my mother were going to get it because she also needed to fill up the car with fuel. We went to the car and while we went we had a good conversation until she needed to talk about the traffic, more like complain, and also about food. But I am now controlling my cravings as I want to eat more healthily, no more candy or fast-food.

We were almost at the destination of my friends location but I needed to search the adress in the GPS. I thought to myself better said that earlier because ofcourse we hadn't no place to park nor sense where the house was. We went on to the gas station and I paid for the fuel because she promised to pay me back after we filled the car but she didn't do the dumbest thing, The machine screen wasn't yet ready, because I needed to enter the pump number before it worked. So she takes the handle of the pump to do in the opening of the car. I needed to do the whole progress again knowing I was on my period so I was annoyed at it and just went into the car.

We went then to the address of my friend and my mom called my sister who was at home gaming after work on her ps4. my mom asked her to ask my friend to come outside with the package as there was no parking space by their house. So she said she would do it because me and my sister have the most common friends, but I find it very good at the beginning that she has friends but now she plays on PS4 with them always when she can and definitely with my bestie. It's like she tries to steal my best friend from me. But back to the main story, my friend goes outside with his stepmother who is a friend of my mom, and has my package with him, my mom stops right in front of the house and he gives my package to me. I thanked him with a high five and waved him goodbye and wished them a happy holiday as they did before we did and we drove away back home.

While we are on the road, my mom directly asks me to open my package, but I know what is in it. But I did open it as I knew she would ask more and more times. So I opened it and loved the glitter pants that I ordered for work as we can wear festive clothes when we work. But when I got out the fake nails I ordered because I was curious about how it works. But my mom directly said ' Don't tell me you are going to wear that while you work.' but I just said that I would because I was done with her saying what I could and couldn't. She says again that it's inappropriate to wear and so on, but I don't fluffing care what she says. We arrive home after having a bad mood the whole ride home. I already undone the seatbelt walked right out of the car and opened the house door with my opened package in my hands. I threw away the wrapping of the package like the grey plastic, I went upstairs with my phones (yes two phones, the main and my reserve phone) and was disappointed that she was still on the PS4, playing games with my bestie and then her boyfriend joins that she hasn't seen in real only on photos and heard his voice (her boyfriend is more a boy that she was introduced to from her friend that I am not friends with). So I go downstairs and make myself a cappuccino as I am thirsty for a warm drink. I see at the dish machine that it's only less than an hour and was going to wait at it downstairs but I then just go upstairs and play Star Stable or Disney Dreamlight Valley as I am trying to earn things off it because of the seasoning events. But had such an urge to write then to play the games, so I started to write my own "diary" to people who might understand that life is hard as hell. while I am typing all this my sister is giggling loud with her headphones on and I can't stand her because I am in the same room as her. We had a deal to make a game room of my room so that I can sleep in her room where we placed my own bed (my previous bed broke and was a mess).

It's now around 11 pm and she plays with the rest of my friend group, but still very noisy (gotta complain about her as she doesn't change volume). I'll be going to sleep in 7 minutes and am hopeful tomorrow will be a better day than every day that is going bad lately. Hopefully, I can move out so I won't have any problems anymore with being responsible for them and do what I can do most of all the silence will be a great help to write stories or going live on YouTube or Twitch or just listening to music at ease and think of what to achieve at life without worrying to must.

Well that's for now and know that patience take you everywhere. Till later.

Peace Out
XxxxxAmberL