Finally understood

part 1

Alex isn't exactly the best at concentrating in school but the minute she's on the pitch she knows what to do where to go everything, Except when somebody pissed her off then they know about. Her older protective sister is always the one called when she is in trouble Amanda her mother gave up on Alex a while ago as she cannot control her no more with the partying and everything  Alex's dad is a dead beat gave up and left but Amanda only tries sometimes but this time Alex really pushed her buttons.

"Fuck this stupid school" I yelled after getting into a fight at a school football game after school we are playing against this other school. My coach had to drag me off the girl and I could not be arsed "go to the changing room!" He screamed at me so I did and then I got escorted to the principle where my mum had to come in and I was sat outside. The way my mum came out that office she seemed like she had been crying "let's go" she said sternly and we got into the car and it was a bad quiet I mean like a deadly quiet and when we got home I got sent straight to my room "so?" I asked j as he came to my room "be expecting a call of Leah... mums told her about today And how you got into that fight on Monday "oh for fuck sake" I whispered "why is Leah even arsed like all she does is yell at me" "she is just protective off you. When we grew up mum and dad where together we had the support you don't" but my phone started to buzz an it is Leah FaceTiming me so j answered as I was about to decline "she was just gonna decline" "thanks j," le said as he propped the phone so it was facing me before he left and he just laughed "fuck offff" I whispered and he is flipping me off "J!" Leah yelled and he left "so heard you had quiet the week" she started with and I just nodded my head and she frowned her eye brows looking at me disappointed "when is this gonna stop because now we are at the stage where your coming to move in with me mums done Alex she's done you have really done it this time tomorrow I'm driving up at 7 so I will be there for about 9 be ready" she said "no Leah please I promise I'll behave" "it's already sorted out kid new school new life in London just mums given up like dad did J is basically a dad to you at home and I'm the only one who can keep a proper grip of you" "a grip of me really?" "Drop the attitude" she raised her voice "you still having panick attacks" she changed the subject "nope" I was but I don't wanna worry her she worries enough "Alex" she looked at me "it's stupid Leah and doesn't matter" "lex be honest with me and tell me now are you because it's not stupid it's something you can't deal with on your own" "I need to go... homework and stuff" I said picking up my phone "Alex you don't do homework," "bye le" "bye kid" I hung up and I stared packing my stuff I was soon done and I went to bed

I woke up around 9 to chatter downstairs my stuff was gone from my rooms so probably in Leah's car so I got ready before going downstairs "there you are" j said as I came down but mum wasn't there just Leah "guessing mum didn't wanna say bye" I laughed "she had work" Leah added but J came up and hugged me "be good I mean it" I just nodded my head and soon me and Leah left the drive was silent she tried speaking to me but I ignored her and stayed on my phone but when we got to her house we both just didn't talk and hid in our rooms "Alex what do you want for dinner!" I heard her yell "I'm fine," i responded "you have not ate today" she walked into my room "I'm not hungry," "you nervous for school in three days or something come on you need to eat I know you start for arsenal u16s soon" "I'm fine Leah" "fine but I'm making some anyway in case you change your mind, katie beth less and viv are all coming round in about half an hour" she said before leaving and I just stayed in my bedroom on my phone. I heard all the commotion downstairs but somebody opened my door "hey trouble" Katie smiled "Katie" I sat up as she came over "why you hiding up here then Leah said you haven't came out all day or ate" I just shrugged my shoulders "what's that on your leg" she asked as I'm wearing shorts meaning the cuts on my thighs.. "nothing" I tugged my shorts down and she stood up "Alex," she looked at me "leave it Katie"I asked her and she tried talking to me but eventually left