Spotify playing...
Sorry I Love You- stray kids
I can't, I can't hide my feelings for you anymore (For you anymore)
I bravely take a step closer to you (To you)
But this step was never easy
I made up my mind long ago, but I still needed more time
"S...
it was sunday... a month have passed since i found out about changbin. i felt guilty for the first week but seonghwa was there for me to cheer me up... im so grateful for him and happy that i met him again... and today i had to work a little... not that much i know its the weekend.
i got up from my comfortable bed that i wished i can continue to sleep. it was 9:30 am its time to go to the store!
i was getting to work but at the middle of the way i stopped because my phone started to fill with notifications.
i left him on read that day... i decided i need space for now.... i cant risk more i dont know why but i care for him so much. i didnt meet him long ago but i feel like i want to know more... something i have never experience before.
FINALLY! but why am i nervous it's not like im confessing... right?
i went down stairs to see chan sitting on the sofa.
"chan i need you help"
"what's wrong"
"i am meeting up with ah yoon... what do i do if she will run away"
"i suggest that you tell her the truth." he smiled. "to be honest is the best way for this situations but if you will do it. please be careful i know how you feel for her and i support it but still explain her. it will be alright..."
i nodded. it makes sense... maybe i should confess... shit im nervous... "thank you hyung" .·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.
LEE AH YOON POV
why am i so nervous.... i was shaking all day at work i was zonning out a lot and now the time was near for my meeting with changbin. i dont know how to speak to him about it. im afraid that it will fuck up his career but why do i want to meet him so bad? what is going on with my heart and mind?
my thoughts were running freely till i heard the bell ringing which means someone entered the store. and it was him. i dont know why but he was shining like the brightest star.
GOD what is going on you stupid heart.
"ah yoon-ah" he said with smiling eyes with his black mask on.
i smiled back. .·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·..·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.
CHANGBIN POV
gosh... i missed looking at her smile... but i know i risk i need to know if it is going somewhere... because i do want it.
i want her to be mine. that's my DECISION.
"can i sit here?" i asked her.
"o-of course sit feel comfortable" she said with a small smile.
she went to the back of the store and came back with two cups of water.
i thanked her.... i felt nervous and i looked at the cup like it was the most interesting thing ever.
"i need to tell you something" she started the coversation.
"yeah me too, but you may start" i told her.
"i-i" she looked away and gripped the cup hard. i can tell she was nervous too.
"i know about you changbin" she stated.
i wasnt sure if i understtod her right about what are we talking but i think i know.
"i know you are an idol..." she looked up at me finally with teary eyes.
SHIT i made her cry.
what should i do? i ran my hand through my fluffy hair.
"i was going to tell-"
"why did you risk yourself for me?" she asked with a shaky voice.
"ah yoon-ah i wanted to tell you but i was scared..." i took her hand.
"but why? why me? im not worth it i could have risk your career..."
"i know but you are the first one who saw my true self... and i wanted to continue to show you that... and im sorry."
it was silence.
"we need to make a decision" she said.
"ah yoon ssi, i know it is a lot but please i want up to keep meeting up. you are special to me."
