Poems About My Crush

I Think About You

I think about you
More often than I would like to admit

I think about you when I'm listening to music, Taylor Swift mostly
I think about you when I listen to 'Sparks Fly' and she sings 'give me something that'll haunt me'
Because you did. You gave me moments that haunted me the last two weeks I didn't see you.
They haunt me, because I don't know what to think about them.
I don't know if you were being nice or if you do like me.
I thought about that a lot and everytime when I came to the conlusion that you do like me I stopped myself, because I don't want to give myself hope, not if you were just nice
I tried forgetting these moments, I tried writing them down, I tried telling my friend about them, but I know the only way to forget them is to go to school tomorrow and see you again. The only way is to get new moments to obsess over.
And I know you will give me those.

I think about you when she sings about Nikes and dark jeans in 'Delicate'
And I change the lyrics from 'never seen that coulour blue' to 'never seen that colour green' when I sing along

I think about you when I listen to 'Sparks Fly' and she sings 'get me with those green eyes'
Because you do get me with them. And you don't even notice that
Funny enough I didn't even realise that your eyes are green. I always thought they were brown
When I first looked in your eyes long enough to see that they are green, I didn't want to believe it. It would mean I would fall even harder for you.
I like green eyes.

I think about you when I listen to 'Wonderland' and she mentions someone flashing green eyes at her
I think about you when she sings 'don't rush into things'
Because if there is one thing I don't do, then it's rushing things
I barley talk to you
I barley know you

But then I remember the stuff that I know about you and I'm pretty sure we would get along
I'm pretty sure we would make a great couple
Because I know you don't like vanilla
Because I know you like Chase Atlantic
Because I know you have Lana Del Rey songs in your playlist
Because I know you get along great with your mother
Because I know you get nervous or even scared when random names are drawn for some stupid games we play on the last day before Christmas in front of the whole school
Because I know you're nervous before every exam even if you studied
Because I know you don't like to go out and rather spend your evenings at home
Because I know you don't drink alcohol

I don't like vanilla, I always liked chocolate better
I started listening to Chase Atlantic and I like their music. I'm thinking about making a playlist with just their songs
(I'm thinking about making a playlist with songs I know you would like, with songs that remind me of you)
I never really got into Lana Del Rey music but she has a song with Taylor Swift, maybe you would like it. I think it's great
I don't always get along with my mother, but she would like you, love you even. She smiles everytime I mention you when I tell my parents about something that happend at school. Am I that obvious? Is it that obvious that I like you? Do you mention me to your parents too?
I get nervous or even scared when random names are drawn for some stupid games we play on the last day before Christmas in front of the whole school. You made a joke that I should hide you when your name is drawn. I promised I would. If you would hide me to. You laughed. I laughed. We shared a moment. Our friend looked at us a little suspicious. Does she know I like you? Does she know you like me? Do you like me?
I'm nervous before every exam even if I studied
I don't like to go out and rather spend my evenings at home. Why don't we spend our evenings together?
I don't drink alcohol. I thinks it's pointless, because I know I can have fun without it

I think if I really get to know you, I would like you. It would be more than just a crush
I think if you really get to know me you would like me too. We would get along

I want to know you
I want to know your favorite movie and watch it with you
I want to watch 'Tangeled' and 'Miss Americana' and even horror movies with you. I would get scared but it would be okay because you are there
I want to know your favorite songs and listen to them with you
I want to show you Taylor Swift songs that I think you would like
I want us to do our homework together
I want to sit and read a book while you are at your phone and I would share funny parts with you
I want to know what you are passionate about
I want to show you my CD and Vinyl collection and explain why certain pieces I own are cool or rare or fancy

I think about how it would be to talk to you, to hold your hand, to lay in your arms
I thought about it so much I dreamed about it. It was the night from 2023 to 2024. Does that mean something? I bet it doesn't because while I was sleeping the year wasn't switching. I was up when it did. I was thinking of you at that moment. I was wondering if you were thinking of me too.
But even though the year wasn't switching, it was the first night in 2024.
People say when you move into a new place the first thing you dream will come true. Is it the same with new years?
I hope so because in my dream I was holding your hand