Why can't i just focus?

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TW: slight mention of SH, hair pulling, and anxiety.

Ellie's POV
I wake up, and I look over at the clock on my new nightstand

Ellie's POVI wake up, and I look over at the clock on my new nightstand

اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.

"Ughhh." I groan slightly

I get up and find some clothes to wear, and then get into the shower.
After I shower, I get dressed and then do my hair

(Outfit)

(I imagine her hair looking like this, but with lighter hair, and a little bit lighter skin)

اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.

(I imagine her hair looking like this, but with lighter hair, and a little bit lighter skin)

I go downstairs after getting dressed, my sister isn't awake yet, I'm not sure where to go yet, I check my phone, I debate turning down the role, which I still can do, but then I realize this role is the one I've always wanted, so it wouldn't be a...

اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.

I go downstairs after getting dressed, my sister isn't awake yet, I'm not sure where to go yet, I check my phone, I debate turning down the role, which I still can do, but then I realize this role is the one I've always wanted, so it wouldn't be a good idea, I go to my sisters room and knock on the door, she answers

"Hey? What're doing up at this time?" She asks

"Uhm..."

She sighs "I'm getting my shoes." And then goes and gets her shoes

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As we pull up to where everyone is meeting each other, I feel a wave of anxiety coming from me, I swirl my hair and attempt to pull at it, my sister grabs my hand before I could hurt myself

"Don't worry Ellie, you'll be fine, I'll make sure of it." My sister says reassuringly

"That's easy for you to say May, you aren't the actress in this situation." I respond not trying to sound rude

She smiles and helps me out of the car and walks me over to the crowd, thankfully, May is friends with some of the camera crew, one person recognizes May and yells

"Hey May!" And motions her over, she drags me over too, my heart is pounding outside of my chest and it's getting hard to breathe, everyone is looking at me, I just look at the ground, May's friend signals her to look at me, May's friend walks the crowd somewhere else, and May walks me behind another building

She gets to my height and puts her hands on my shoulders
"I need you to take a few deep breaths for me."

A few moments later, she hugs me
"You, just be you, and they will like you, that's what I've learned, and it's alright to be nervous, but know that nothing bad is gonna happen to you, okay?"

I nod

"I love you Ellie."

Mariska's POV
As the crowd is redirected back a little, I feel bad for that kid, I know she's going to play my new daughter, I just feel bad, I don't think even Ryan was that nervous meeting the cast.

All of a sudden I hear one of the people involved in the camera crew say

"Alright guys, so we have a new cast mate, it'll be a few moments, she's a little nervous about being here, she just needs some space."

My heart aches for this kid, she's probably so lost and confused.

From the corner of my eye I see her sister walking her back over and leaving after giving her a hug, eventually we all head inside of the building and everyone else just catches up to each other, eventually I push myself to walk up to the little girl

Ellie's POV
I'm sitting in the corner of the room, on a chair, what am I doing? I've met Taylor fucking Swift before, I shouldn't be this scared.

I'm immersed into my mind and then I hear

"Ellie, right?"

I look up to see Mariska Hargitay sitting in the chair by me

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Hehe
Anyways
Happy birthday to Mariska!!!

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