"you're fucking kidding" hermione deadpans at ginny and she smiles shaking her head.
"cmon hermione!! blaise invited me and said i can have a plus one so that's you!" she grins and hermione sighs. she's not sure if it's a good idea. her and draco haven't spoke in 2 weeks, the whole last time issue must have been true.
she's not quite sure how to feel about that.
on the bright side, harry has slept for the entire 2 weeks which means so has she.
"to a slytherin party gin? don't you think i'll look incredibly out of place? Gryffindor princess and all?" she jokes and ginny lets her head fall back in a laugh. if hermione could bask in all the people that she loves laughs she would forever.
"we should go, just see how it is and if you hate it we can leave!" she says and hermione groans and then eventually, "okay fine! fine." she agrees.
"yay!" ginny squeals wrapping her arms around hermiones neck and for the first time in a while, she curls into the hug.
and squeezes tight and feels the tears prick in her eyes, "oh..are you okay babe?" she asks her and all hermione can do is shake her head. afraid of her own voice. not trusting of the words that could spill out. she wants to tell her, tell her she's struggling with everything.
"no" she sniffles back and ginny grips her tighter.
"wanna talk about it?" she asks hermione and she takes a deep breath.
"you'll think i'm mad. you'll think i've lost my mind" and ginny pulls back and looks at her with a soft smile, "try me" she says and hermione takes another deep breath.
"i.. sorta was messing around with.. malfoy." she says and whispers the last part.
ginny's eyes widen and that makes hermiones widen too in a panic.
"i'm sorry?" ginny says clearing her throat, "did you say.. malfoy.. as in draco malfoy?" she asks her and hermione nods.
ginny leans back in her chair and takes a moment, "now that, hermione granger, is bloody wild" she says and let's out a cackle, "holy shit tell me everything!" she squeals and hermione is looking at her now like she's gone mad.
"this is fucking great! you and malfoy? holy merlin i can not believe this shit." she's still laughing and hermione goes to open her mouth and shuts it again.
"um right we'll it's not .. anymore" she shakes when head and then the laughing stops.
"what happened?" she asks and reaches for hermiones hand.
"i'm not.. well.. i told him i was a virgin and he was like not about being "fuck" buddies with a virgin which makes sense i guess. it was fucking stupid anyways to mess around with him like what was i thinking? fucking malfoy" hermione shakes her head and rubs her fingers through her curly hair.
"would you?" she asks her, "would you sleep with him?" and her breath hitches.
"no i- no i want that for someone i love" she says and ginny smiles, "people have this weird misconception of sex with people. it's supposed to be this big intimate moment where people just confess their love for eachother then sleep together but it's just, not like that anymore... so don't let him take that away from you, it should be with someone you love" ginny tells her.
"yeah but a part of me just.. thinks it'll be easier to just do it and get it over with" she tells her friend and ginny shrugs, "ultimately it's up to you, but it shouldn't be something you end up regretting you know?" she asks her and hermione nods, "and it shouldn't be something you should feel guilted into doing or do to just keep someone around" and those words made hermione take a deep breath.
