I don’t know how I should describe my life now.. It's like I am only floating. Bright has given me so much pain - that i can't even mumble a word against him now.
After the horrifying death of Park, he made sure I never made the same mistake again. He is always making sure of it. Just like now, I am in his ship. He had a shipping company which as always I didn’t know.
"Phi, is the food not good?"
Barcode asked tilting his head.
I smiled, "no it’s fine"
"Should i scold the chef?"
I was again stunned, my sugar never disrespected anyone. He was always the humble one. But the way I am seeing him behaving nowadays, is making me question my upbringing.
Still after that day I have become conscious around him.
"It’s fine. Just motion sickness"
"Baby should i divert your mind somewhere else so you don’t get concentrate on the waves?"
Bright whispered - massaging my thigh.
He just can't keep his hands away.
"Plz, baby is here"
Bright in a moment gripped my mandible and harshly kissed me.
Then pulled me in his lap,
And me?
As usual all my attempts failed to be released.
After around two minutes he left me,
"Never say no to me. Am I clear?"
I nodded with tears glistening my eyes.
The embarrassment...
I didn’t dare to look at my baby.
"Ohhhhh! Phiiii... I am jealous. So jealous now. When will I get my prince?"
I stilled.
What?!
I looked at barcode. He was looking at us with something dreamy in his eyes.
Is he my baby?
No it can't be.
"Bab..byy" i couldn’t form any other words.
"Phi... I really wish my prince charming will be just like brother Bright." he was grinning?
Huh!
"Of course my princess will get his prince just like the way he wants."
I stunned looked at Bright.
What's he saying?
What has happened to my baby?
He wasn’t like this.
He used to be someone else.
I cleared the lump in my throat.
"Baby, you should fall in love first"
I tried to see if my baby is still there or not.
He pouted, " phi, i will get the one i want, right phi bright?"
I was again stunned.
"Of course. Everything will be yours you put your finger on."
My head was spinning now.
I just stayed still for the rest of the time. They were talking like i am not there.
I have to talk with him.
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I knocked, barcode opened the door.
"Phi. Come inside. I was picking the dress i will wear today"
The whole room looked like a clothing showroom. Where the hell did he get all these clothes?
"Phi?"
"Huh"
"I was asking if i should red or white"
"Anything you like"
"Red then"
"I wanted to talk with you baby"
He was fixing the earing without looking at me he said, "anything wrong phi? You looked pale at the breakfast table"
"Yeah. Actually about the thing is?"
Then he looked at me.
"Phi.. You are behaving weird these days. What's wrong?"
He sat in front of me.
I took his hands in mine, "baby, we were happy before right?"
He nodded.
"We used to be happy with the minimal things we had. But nowadays i can't relate to you. It feels like i can't recognise you"
He looked taken aback. He removed his hand and stood up, "So this is it, you don’t like it that brother Bright is taking care of me? Or more like i am spending his money. Phi you should have said it straight. Ok fine i won't take money from your husband. You know what phi I can't recognise you now. You are so full of yourself, always trying to sabotage me. What have I done wrong? Huh! Ok fine i will give back brother Bright everything."
He started shouting and crying.
I can't believe my baby is shouting like this to me.
"No baby, i was just...."
"Shut the fuck up phi. You are so unbelievable. You could have just tell me you don’t want anything to do with me. You are so money oriented now. I just hate you..."
What?
I slapped him hard, without realising.
He looked stunned.
I have never even scolded my baby.
I....I...I...
I ran from there.
All along I was tolerating every ugly fucking humiliation just to make my baby shine.
Now he hates me?
Hate!?
I ran and ran.. I don’t know where to.
My legs stopped at the corner of the ship. I could see the water splashed.
I collapsed on the deck, tears were coming non-stop.
The sun hitting my face, was making it worse. I vomited and closed my eyes. After that what happened i don't know.
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The softness of the bedsheets were giving me hints of the place i was in.
I saw it was Bright's room where i was sleeping. I sat on the bed, saw i was only wearing a black shirt covering nothing much of my legs.
The door opened, it was Perth.
"Oh you woke up"
"Water"
"Wait"
He gave me a glass of cold water.
"What happened"
"You were out for a whole day"
I was shocked.
A whole day?
"Bright was on the verge of killing the doctor."
I sighed.
"How did you guys find me?" i whispered.
"Barcode was crying in his room and you disappeared. The guards informed Bright. Then the whole ship was postmortemed upside down"
I nodded.
"How is barcode now?"
"Win- listen to me... Your baby isn’t your baby anymore. He is now The Bright's baby. You have to accept it"
I was sobbing again, "i can't accept this downgrade of him"
"He has gone way more downroad than you can imagine. You were not there. I saw everything. He is literally Bright's sugarbaby now. Just accept it."
I shook my head, "i cannot"
"You have to. For your own good."
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After crying for another ten minutes i came out of the room with Perth.
In the dinning room, but i wasn’t prepared for the guests i would encounter.
Zee and Saint were smiling and talking with Barcode.
And Bright was feeding him - on his lap.
I stared at the scene - it looked like a moment from a series.
Perth guided me towards the room.
Then everyone felt my presence.
Bright only glared. The others got silent.
I didn’t say anything to anyone just ate my food.
"I heard you fainted. How are you now?" it was the first time Zee asked me something.
I nodded, "good"
Bright was still glaring.
"You are so weak" Saint snickered.
I didn’t bother to answer.
Again everyone started chatting.
I didn’t pay any attention.
But I could feel Bright's gaze on me.
Barcode was silently eating and smiling to Saint's remarks.
After finishing Perth guided me to my room.
I slept weeping and cursing my fate.
I was in deep slumber, I heard moaning sounds of two male.
I flabbergasted and woke up.
I then saw Bright was fucking Zee across my room - the couch area.
He was literally choking Zee.
And zee was so much enjoying.
I couldn’t take anymore the humiliation, the pain in my heart - so I went outside in the balcony.
I looked at the moon, just a lame attempt to escape the erotic sounds.
Soon those moans replaced by the skinslashing sounds of belt.
It shook my core.
My mind.
My ability to think.
I am afraid for my future.
Now I am not afraid for brother.
So now nothing will stop me.
