◖Tears◗ Jake Webber X Johnnie Guilbert

2.PoorJohnnie

Tw:(Ik Tara isn't like this irl, it's just for the plot okay?)

.・゜゜・Jakes Pov.・゜゜・

Johnnie is in the shower right now.

And I know it's wrong of me to snoop but....
I really wanna know what's in that God forsaken notebook.

Johnnie usually takes very long showers so maybe I'll be able to sneak a few pages into my brain.

I get up from my bed and walk straight to Johnnies room.

I open the door and look at his desk.

"Fuck yes" I say as I see the notebook still sat out.

I grab it and open to the very first page.

The words written out so beautifully at first but scribbled at the end.

I begin to read

'September 17th 2024
Cassie said I should start writing to help me cope.
Im not gonna miss her honestly.
Great therapist but therapy just isn't my thing.
She said to write to help for the absence of meeting her ever other Tuesday.
I'm glad I stopped seeing her.
What do I even write about?
How I hurt myself?
This is stupid'

Oh shit... I mean.

It's not that bad, but it's still concerning.

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OH SHIT

The shower water shut off.

I quickly placed the journal back down and sprinted to my room sitting on my bed, catching my breath from the sudden running..

Poor Johnnie.

What can I do.

I don't know what to do.

TARA!

She would know what to do!

I grab my phone opening my messages and texting her

Me:Tara!!!

Tara🖤:hey! Wasup?

Me:I need help with smth

Tara🖤: what is it?

Me: It's Johnnie

Tara🖤: Jake if this is about his eating disorder again!
Tara🖤:I don't know what you want me to do.
Tara🖤:I'm not a fucking wizard I can't fix shit.

Me:no
Me:it's not that..

Tara🖤:then what?

Me: I read his notebook
Me: in it he talked about hurting himself!
Me:and I'm worried!

Tara🖤: when was the written?

Me: back in Sept but still

Tara🖤: there you go again.
Tara🖤: you need to calm down.
Tara🖤: he's fucking fine.
Tara🖤: it's October

Me: okay but I'm still worried for him????

Tara🖤: R u fr
Tara🖤:you need to calm tf down, your "little boyfriend" Is fine.

Me: Johnnie my friend, Babe. And you know that.

Tara🖤: well your also half fag so?????
Tara🖤:what am I to expect?

Me: just cause I'm bi, doesn't mean I'm gonna leave you for some random dude.
Me: I love you and you know that.
Me: I'm just worried for him

Tara🖤: drop it with the whole Johnnie thing
Tara🖤: you are more dramatic then most girls I know.

Me: sorry

Tara🖤: you should be, cause Johnnie is fucking fine.

I set my phone down.

I sigh deeply and wipe a tear I didn't even know had fallen off of my cheek.

"Jeez." I say standing up and going to the living room to watch TV to get my mind off of the conversation I just had.

Ever since I tried talking about Johnnie to Tara, she gets all pissy.

And I don't get it.

I just want her to understand that I care about Johnnie and that he's so important to me.

Poor Johnnie..

547 words

It's for the plot, I know Tara isn't like this irl🖤

~kall~