I look at Stefan, then at Matt, and back to Stefan. There is no way this is going to go well.
"What are you doing here?" I ask Stefan, even though I do not want to hear the answer, especially not in front of Matt.
"What do you think I am doing here! You snuck out on me while I was asleep, what the hell was that?!" Stefan booms. I hold my breath as his voice echoes off the wall. Matt's face flashes with anger and I know he is beginning to put the puzzle pieces together.
I am torn between trying to explain to Matt what is going on and trying to explain to Stefan why I left.
"Answer me!" Stefan yells and stands in front of my face. I am surprised when Matt steps between us.
"Don't yell at her" he warns Stefan. I am frozen in place when Stefan's face twists in anger. Why is he so mad that I left? He would have kicked me out anyway. I need to say something before this all blows up in my face. He is probably only angry that he didn't get to make me cry first.
"Stefan.. please don't do this right now." I beg. If he leaves now, I can try to explain to Matt what is going on.
"Do what Elena?" Stefan asks and walks around Matt. I hope Matt keeps his distance, I don't think Stefan will hesitate to knock him over. Matt is kinda buff but nothing compared to Stefan. What the hell is happening in my life that I have to worry about Matt and Stefan fighting?
"Stefan, please just go and we will talk about this later" I say and Matt shakes his head.
"Talk about what? What the hell is going on Elena?" Matt cuts in. Oh God.
"Tell him, go on and tell him" Stefan says. I can't believe he is doing this. I know how cruel he can be but this takes it to a whole other level.
"Tell me what Elena?" Matt asks.
"Nothing, just that I stayed at Stefan and Marcel's last night" I lie. I try to match my brown eyes to Stefan's in hopes that he will stop this now but he looks away immediately.
"Tell him Elena or I will" Stefan growls and I begin to cry.
"Matt.. I.. me and Stefan have been.." I start. Stefan's angry face shifts to smug. I can't believe I spent the night with him, last night it felt amazing but I knew I would end up regretting it. I just didn't know it would get this bad first.
"Oh my god" Matt stutters and his eyes begin to water. How could I do this to him? What the hell was I thinking? Matt is so kind and Stefan is cruel enough to make me tell Matt about us in front of him. His hands go to his forehead and he shakes his head.
"How could you Elena? After everything we have been through? When did this start?" Tears stream down his face from his blue eyes. I have never felt this terrible, I caused those tears. I look over at Stefan and then back at Matt. My hate for Stefan consumes me and I shove him back instead of answering Matt. Stefan is caught off guard and stumbles backwards but steadies himself before he falls.
"Matt, I am so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." I am being honest, I don't know what the hell I was thinking.
I suppose I was thinking that Stefan could be decent and maybe I could break up with Matt and date Stefan. How stupid can I be? Or that I could stay away from Stefan and Matt would never know about what happened between us. The problem is that I can't stay away from Stefan. I am too far gone, too far under his spell, and he didn't hesitate to curse me.
Both are stupid and naive options but I haven't made one good choice since I have met Stefan.
"I don't know what you were thinking either, I don't even know you anymore" Matt shouts and walks towards the door.
"Matt please! Wait!" I scream and rush after him. Stefan grabs my arm and tries to pull me back.
"Don't touch me! I can't believe you! This is low Stefan, even for you" I scream and jerk my arm out of his grasp. I push him again. I have never pushed anyone in my life except him, multiple times.
"If you go after him, I am done" He says and my mouth falls open. Done with what?
"Done? Done with what? Fucking with my emotions? I hate you! You can't end something that never began" I say, my voice is no longer shouting. His hands fall to his sides and his mouth opens but no words come out.
"Matt!" I call and rush out the door. I run down the hall and finally catch up to him in the parking lot. He notices me and walks faster.
"Matt, please listen. I am sorry, so sorry. I was drinking, I know that isn't an excuse but I.." I wipe my eyes and his face softens.
"I can't listen to anymore.." he says. His eyes are red. I reach for his hand and he pulls away.
"Matt please, I am so sorry. Please forgive me" I can't lose him and Stefan in one day. Even though Stefan was never mine and never would be, it still hurts to see his newest level of hatred for me. Especially after the way he held me and called my name in his sleep.
"I just need some time, Elena. I don't know what to think" He says and runs his hand over his perfectly gelled hair.
"Okay" I sigh in defeat. He just needs time to get over this and we can go back to normal.
"I love you Elena" he says and catches me by surprise when he kisses my forehead and climbs into his car.
