Roomates to Lovers

talk

Tw: panic attack (I think), mention of sh

btw this whole story is gonna be johnnies pov

I woke up to something moving next to me. When I opened my eyes I saw that it wasn't something but someone. It was Jake, he had his head on my chest and I had my hands around his waist. He looked confused at first but then realised that I woke up. I quickly took my hands of his waist and sat up. I acctually wanted to stay in this position but thought that in made Jake uncomfortable. '' We probaly endet up like this while sleeping'', I said. ''I guess haha, but it was acctually quite comfortable'' Jake answered. I made me blush but I looked away so he wouldn't see.

After a while of just looking at our phones jake told me that there is gonna be a party  at Taras house in the evening and he asked me if I wanted to go there. I didn't really feel like going on a party today but I think it would make Jake happy so I agreed. After a while Jake got up and went to the kitchen, hes probably gonna make his coffee since he quit energy drink a few days ago. 

little time skip

I was right, he made himself a coffee. He sat down and just looked at me until he started talking.  "Soo uhmm Johnnie, I think it's time we talk about it". Oh god no he wants to talk about my sh, I think i'm gonna throw up. "what about it?" I asked while trying not to Panic. "Just why?, I just wanna know why you did it, what happened?, did I do something or what? please tell me" "please Jake I don't want to talk about it, it just kinda happened but I can promise you that it has nothing to do with you" " kinda happened?? Johnnie your talking about it like it's nothing" "i'm Sorry" I say as I get up and go to the bathroom. "No Johnnie wait!" I hear Jake yell as I close the door. I sit down on the floor and my hands start to shake and I feel like I can't breathe properly. A few tears start to leave my eyes and I start to break down. I have the urge again but I feel like it would make Jake a lot sadder, I mean I already feel guilty enough. Suddenly there is a knock on the door "Johnnie i'm sorry, I shouldn't have talked about it when you didn't want to but I really want to help you but I can't because you won't tell me anything, so please open the door". These words break my heart so I wipe the tears away and open the door but when I see that Jakes red puffy eyes I break down again. "i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry...." I just start apologizing I didn't want him to cry I feel so guilty.

I said that yall are gonna get this chapter last month but i'm sorry I didn't have the energy .

idk how to make this up to yall but here are some fun facts about my self

fun fact I have a test tomorrow 

fun fact I got never take it of merch

fun fact I wanna be emo or scene

fun fact i'm basic

fun fact i'm not even 24 hours clean

fun fact I have a lisp 

fun fact I think my whole class hates me (LOL)