Race Track or Basketball Court (AJ + C Forever)

Chapter 16: British Vacation

Caitlin

A week later...

It's been almost a week since AJ and Charles started dating, and saying that it hurt seeing them together is an understatement. They have been plastered everywhere together. There were even pictures and videos of them on their date together. I think I was the only one who was unhappy about them being together.

I was with Conner, Alex, and Ali when we watched the Austria Grand Prix. When they showed Charles kissing AJ on victory lane, I felt sick to my stomach while the other three were cheering them on.

Alex- Finally!!! We have been waiting for them to be together since the first day she brought him to meet us.

Ali- That kiss looked like it was straight out of a movie. She definitely will never forget about that kiss.

From that moment on I pretended to be happy for her and Charles. I even told her congratulations on being with Charles, but after she thanked me we really didn't talk much.

Apparently I wasn't a good enough actor for my mother though, because the morning right before my trip she confronted me.

Anne- Are you okay Cait? You have seemed a little off lately.

Caitlin- I am okay mom.

Anne- Please be honest with me. Did something happen between you and Conner? Because you don't have to go on this trip.

Caitlin- No nothing happened between me and Conner.

Anne- If nothing happened between you and Conner, then why have you been down since Sunday?

Caitlin- I haven't been down since Sunday.

Anne- Caitlin I am your mother I can tell when something is wrong with you. So will you please let me help you?

In that moment, I couldn't help but break down and let all of my feelings out. My mom just comforts me as I tell her the truth about me and Conner, and I confessed my feelings to her about AJ.

Caitlin- I just feel like I am stuck mom. I just feel like I am not good enough. My relationship with Conner is just a big joke anymore. Like now there's rumors that he cheated on me while he was in Indiana to accept that job with the Pacers. Plus I am not in love with him, but I feel stuck in this relationship.

Anne- You know that you don't have to stay with him, right?

Caitlin- I don't know how I can break up with him especially since we are literally getting ready to go on a vacation with each other.

Anne- If you don't want to break up with him before this trip, then just take the time and see how it feels after the trip. But I am going to be completely honest it's not going to get any easier or better.

Caitlin- Well it's not like I could be with the person who I want to be with.

Anne- Who do you actually want to be with?

I stayed quiet for a few moments until I finally built up the courage to say...

Caitlin- I want to be with Avery mom.

Anne- You still have that crush on her don't you?

Caitlin- It's not a crush anymore, I have real feelings for her mom.

Anne- But Cait she is straight, and doesn't date women.

I paused and told myself to keep going and to tell her everything.

Caitlin- You can't tell anyone this but Avery is Bi. She has dated girls in secret, but just hasn't came out. Plus we kinda slept together in Miami.

Anne- That's a lot to process, but go on. What happened after that?