So I have a journal specifically for poetry (irl) and I thought it might be fun to put some of my works up on here!! Some of them are pretty personal so just please keep an open mind when reading them. Thank you!!
Again, they're kind of personal so...
This poem was written on February 12th, 2024. I wrote this poem because the year before, on February 12th, 2023, I had tried to kill myself. This year, around February 12th, I had been thinking a lot about the previous year and its events. From around February 8th, I kept thinking about what has changed in the time span of a year, and I realized that nothing had changed and I still felt almost the exact same way I did the year before. If you have never felt this way or just don't understand, I was pretty depressed because of this thought, leading to increased feelings of self-hatred. This year, on February 13th, 2024, I did attempt to kill myself (again) due to self-hate and various other factors. I am okay now, for any of those wondering, and I am currently in the process of healing. I also sometimes get questions from people asking me if it's Valentine's Day that makes me upset (because I'm single and lonely🥲), and no, it's not. Valentine's is actually my favorite holiday and even though I am single, I still love to celebrate it.
If you are struggling with things like suicidal ideation, self-hate/harm, depression, and other extremely important issues, please seek professional help. I would love to help anybody I can, but sadly, I am not very educated in the field of psychology and cannot provide any professional guidance. However, if you only need someone to talk to, then I am always available.
Suicide and Crisis Hotline: 988 (at least in my country.)
Thank you so much for reading my yap session!! (hopefully I didn't bore you😭)
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