𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐞 (rewritten!)

𝐱𝐢𝐢𝐢. 𝐠𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐮𝐩!

𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐕𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐎 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓. He sounded like clouds or cotton candy. Maybe more like cotton candy, soft and sweet. He said her nickname so softly that she thought that maybe she had imagined it. She thinks that she preferred that he was on her mind than at the other side of the wall. The nicknames came when she had finally trusted him enough. No... She trusted him the moment she saw him walking to the line of danger the first day. He had brought the nicknames, she had just continued whatever cycle he was making. She couldn't help but think when she used to call Lee Eun-hyuk and Lee Eun-yoo by nicknames, it was almost as if she was doing it all again.

Min Seo-yun sniffles. She didn't feel like answering him. Truly, she wanted to make him believe that it wasn't her on the other side but some other girl. But for some reason, her sniffle enough seemed to tell him that it was the devil girl who had lost her sanity with Jung Ui-myeong or Pyeon Sang-wook, or whatever. He had asked something and when the words left his mouth, she felt a sudden warmth enter her stomach. It was so intense that she couldn't help but shiver because of it, hugging herself tighter. She needed the butterflies to be intense enough to choke her and kill her.

She didn't deserve to feel like this.

Not for someone so soft and sweet.

"I'm sorry." It was the only words her mind had truly registered. The butterflies died down a bit, making a small grimace appear on her face. What was he even apologizing for? Her hands tightened in fists and she didn't understand why she felt so angry, so shaky suddenly. "For bringing you here." What the hell had she even asked him? Did he think she was already asking without the question? "I... I just want these people to not... become like us."

"I don't think anyone can save humans." The first words that purposely came out of her mouth. She leaned her head back into the wall, letting out a sigh. Her head hurt. "I wouldn't want to be anywhere except by your side, Hyun." She felt like it was a lie. Even if she also knew it was the wholehearted truth, she wanted it to be a lie. She needed it to be a lie. "I wish we hadn't met like this."

"What?"

"...I wish..." Did she have to ruin her life by telling him this? Did she want to ruin his life by telling him this? But she couldn't help it. She felt if she didn't, she was gonna choke in an abyss of water. "I wish I would have fallen in love with you in another circumstance. I wish that you just thought of me as the girl who decided to put a basket of candy on his door. I wanted you to be just the boy who was too awkward, who I saved his life the first day we met. I wish I could see your eyes and face again without having this stupid wall between us. I... I wish we hadn't become monsters before realizing I love you."

And the words had finally come out. She thought of Jung Jae-heon, unconsciously. Will he be smiling because Seo-yun finally confessed her feelings to Cha Hyun-soo? And then, this time consciously, she thought of Sang-wook and Park Yu-ri, wondering if they would have ended up exactly like them. Seo-yun let her head fall between her shoulders, above her thighs. The words had come out, everything she had started feeling since he first thanked her. It felt stupid now that she had fallen for him for such a minimum thing. But she couldn't care less now. The only ridiculous thing was the agonizing silence between them.

"You... love me?" His voice sounded meek. Out of character. Her heart sank. But she acted quite nonchalant from Hyun-soo's point of view as he only heard an almost annoyed sigh come out of her mouth for the fourth time already.

"Uh-huh." That's all she said.

Her voice sounded deeper than before. Hyun-soo unconsciously imagined her scratching her hair to picture her as nonchalantly as possible. He let out a sigh, placing his back on the wall now. He bent his knees high enough that he could place his forearms on them. He thought about her words, almost tasting them in his mind. The girl with the most beautiful pixie hair, pink lips, cutest smile, and beautiful laugh loved... him? He couldn't believe it. He started shaking and he didn't know if it was out of excitement or... No, no. It was definitely because of excitement.