Destruction~ solby

Sam

July 2023

As I held up the champagne glass, I said some words that I've dreamed of for months.
,,Colby is officially cancer free."
As our friends were clapping I couldn't help but admire his face. He has fought like none other . Colby is probably, no, definitely the strongest person I know. At this point we were staring at each other and he gave me a smile. That damn smile.

It's been around 3 hours since everyone left and now it's just me and Colby. While we drank champagne and white claw with our friends, now because we were alone we were drinking some red wine, because we're basically a married couple.
,,I can't believe it's over" he suddenly said.
Cigarettes after sex is playing in the background, this looks kinda romantic now that I think about it, but I don't have a problem with it, I actually really enjoy it.
,,Well be glad it is, because i am definitely glad." I gave him a smile.
,,Wanna watch a movie?" He asked.
,,Yea sure such one?"
,,Whatever you want I like whatever you like."
,,I think you already know."
,,Interstellar?"
,,Interstellar."

Halfway into the movie and I was already bawling my eyes out. As much as I love it, it makes me so sad.
,,You're crying?" He asked jokingly while chuckling.
,,Yea." I chuckled through the tears.
We were already two bottles of wine in and it was definitely showing its effects.
"Wanna play smash or pass?" He suddenly asked.
,,Wow Cole you're so mature" obvious sarcasm in my voice.
,,Come oooon." He said whining.
,,Ok sure" I agreed knowing that were mostly drunk and well forget about it anyway.
,,Ok, hmmm, smash or pass me" he sounded so proud for coming up with that one.
,,Would it raise your ego if I said yes?"
,,Very much so."
,,Then no"
,,Wow Sam you're so funny."
,,Yea I know I'm hilarious."
Then we both just burst out laughing. The laughing didn't stop for around 5 minutes.
,,Well that smash or pass game definitely was pretty short." He said while still laughing a little.
,,Yea." We were full on crying laughing over the most unfunny stuff at this point. But I loved every moment of it.
He sighed and there was a moment of silence between us. We were just looking at each other and he suddenly said:
,,Thanks, for everything. I really don't know I I could ever repay you for everything you did." He said with sadness in his voice.
,,You already did. The fact that you beat cancer is enough for me."
,,I love you so much Sam" he smiled
I was a little shocked but at the same time a little sad. Why? Is it because I know he doesn't mean it like that? No there's no way.
,,I love you too Colby"
We both hugged. This little moments just make my whole day if not my whole life. Whenever I'm with him all my worries go away. I could never be more grateful for him.
I caught him staring at me. No. I caught him staring at my lips. He noticed me and pretended to look the other way. He should have kissed me. No I should have kissed him. No what am I thinking. This got so awkward.
He suddenly got up from the couch.
,,Uhh I think we should go to bed.." he was acting kinda.. shy? I guess you could say that.
,,But what about—" I didn't even finish my sentence and he was already going upstairs.
,,I'll cleanup tomorrow!" He yelled already upstairs.
What the fuck was that.
I sighed and got out of bed and started cleaning up myself. I'm not even that tired anyways. I mean I am but I know I won't sleep anyway.
Then my head started spinning and my ears were ringing. What the fuck what the fuck.
Why does this always happen. I was on the verge of passing out basically because of nothing.
Just make it stop.

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Don't even know if I should keep writing this but I have an ending in mind and I really want to write it but I don't know how to get to that point 😭