Growing up as a black girl

Chapter 3: Freshman year

College it is not easy
There's drama just like in high school. It is not as mature as people say it is. It is just like high school in the social aspect.

Men only wanting to fuck other women not wanting true love.

I dealt with a guy (JM) that i thought was real. I let him take my virginity put all my love into him to find out he was messing with one of my homeboys girlfriends that he didn't even know they were dating playing them all as fools. Then turned back to me to claim my love never truly showing me, love only lust. I stayed because I was blinded by love and lust. Letting my jealousy take over saying hurtful words. Having pregnancy scares at only 18 after not using condoms when JM says he always uses condoms but soon as I gave the ok and found out I was allergic to latex, condoms flew out the window. The sex always felt one sided like the JM felt more pleasure than me. JM being able to have a release and me never having one.

Me and JM were back and forth always finding something to bump heads about me being insecure about a lot of things that he did. Me feeling like he was not being loyal to me. Flirting with other females being openly friendly.