My Mind is a Prison

Scars Of You

I didn't realize how bad you had conditioned me,

Not until I fully broke free.

To rebuild my self-worth and self-respect is extremely hard.

I remember I am an independent person, 

And not just your tool to use and break anymore.

I hate my past self for not seeing you as you were, A monster.

Instead, I fell for your lies, your tricks.

And as a result, I did things I regret. Things you endorsed and encouraged.

Because in the end, Your whole goal was to break me.

From the venom-laced sweet talk to the pure anger towards me.

Every single day I'm making progress, doing things you told me I could never do.

I'm slowly rebuilding all the things you broke in me; My smile, Strength, courage, and happiness.

But some days I falter, backtracking from where I stand.

The pain comes back and I relive the horrors.

And I hate everything about it, even you.

But I continue to fight. To hurt, and to heal.

Because no matter how much pain I am in, or how scared I am,

I refuse to let you win.