Friday morning I wake up with a huge headache. My head is throbbing.
I have noticed recently that I don't want to eat anymore and that studying is far beyond my reach.
I take a Tylenol and head to school.
Skipping breakfast as I rest my head on my desk. My head is still hurting and my body feels way cold. Could this be a side effect from too much sex?
" Princess -"
" I'm not having sex with you today" I don't even have to look up to know it's Jake. He lets out a sigh and brushes my hair off my head. I give him a glare as he stares at me. His Cold demeanor showing a bit of worry
" Princess your burning up"
He swifts me off my chair and holds me in his arms. I'm so drained that I can't even push him away. I can feel his heartbeating out of his chest as I try to relax.
" I'm taking u home."
He demands as he scoops up my bag and carries me out of the school. I shut my eyes and pass out in his arms.
When I wake up I'm in my bed. Jakes reading a book silently. My forehead has a damp cloth on it and there's a heating pad on my lower stomach.
He looks up at me and helps me sit up.
" Are u alright princess?"
He asks in a concerned tone. I rub my eyes gently and yawn. Allowing my eyes to adjust to the sunlight shinning in the room.
" I'm not feeling good today...."
I let out a weak cough as Jake slowly rubs my back. I can tell that he's trying to help me feel better. But at this point my head is throbbing hard. As if someone hit it with a hammer.
" Do u need anything?"
" Some water....."
My voice cracks a bit as I say that. As if I'm getting weaker by the second.
I glance at Jake who is rummaging through his bag. To my surprise he pulls out a box of pregnancy tests. He opens it and hands me one. The look of hesitantcy arises within me as I take it.
I swear to God if I'm pregnant I'm screwed.
" Please take it. We just need to take precautions Mari"
I look up at Jake startled by his gesture. He didn't call me princess this time. He always calls me princess though....
" Are u paying attention Marianne this is serious. Your too young to be pregnant and I'm too young to be a father."
The way his voice went from concern to anger gave me chills. Since when is this all about Jake.
His hand grips on my wrist as I look up . He looks very furious now. I have never seen Jake act like this.
" Take the test now God damnit!!"
He yells in my face. I can feel my anxiety arise as tears form in my eyes.
Trying to avoid anymore anger I quickly head to the bathroom. I take the pregnancy test and wait for the results. Pacing back and forth in a worried and terrified way. I can't be a mom: I'm only in eleventh grade. I haven't passed school and I'm not even out of my parents house yet.
Plus it's obvious that Jake doesn't want this child either. The way he snarled at me earlier made me realize that. After all where ' just friends with benefits ' to him. I'm sure he's just using me for sex. That's how my ex was....
I look down to see one line on the stick. I wipe my tears away in relief. Thank God I'm not pregnant.
A knock on the door makes me jolt as I hear jakes voice.
" Are u done yet?"
He demands.
I slide the negative test under the door and sit in front of it. My head in my knees: making sure Jake can't open the door.
Jake let's out a sigh as he stands outside the door silently. Then he finally speaks
" I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you feel bad-"
" Get out of my house.-"
I manage to say.
" But Mari i-"
" Get out of my house!!"
I yell in a angry voice. I'm silent for a second shocked that I actually have a loud voice. I usually am a chill person. Yelling like this felt ....good.
I can hear Jake as he grabs his bag and slams my bedroom door shut. I head into my room and look out the window to see Jake . He hops on his bike angirly and speeds off. I know he's mad at me.
And I'm mad at him
I lay on my bed and sob myself to sleep
I wish I never met Jake.
