Jujutsu Kaisen § One shots

A Letter To A Certain Someone,

maybe I didn't mean that much to you, but you were everything to me,

how've you been? haven't heard from you in a while

last time we had an interaction, i greeted you with a "happy birthday"

i wonder what went wrong.. from texting, calling, and playing for hours to barely even a sentence for each other. not even a text or chat, not anything. 

did i do something wrong? or was our distance and situation just not the best for us?

or did you just not share the same strong feelings like i have for you?

don't worry, i'm almost over you.

almost

i realized that the feelings that i bore for you have yet to dissipate when i saw pictures of us together

my heart fluttered

it was like the moment i realized that i liked you,

and you liked me

                               but now you don't and
        you have someone else by your side now,

i was advised that i should delete and forget about all our conversations--and to distract myself from you,

but neither school nor my supposed "boy crazy era" could ever stop my heart beating for you

although

i managed to fool myself into liking someone right now, and i'm in the process of getting to know them.. but

right now....

no one could ever compare to you

you were so perfect

so funny
so kind
so caring
so sweet
so responsible
so mature
so independent
so patient
so considerate
so caring..so sweet..
so cute....
just.. so perfect..

and if not perfect.. then you were near to perfection.

i've never looked at anyone else like how i look at you

even though we're miles apart, it's still as if you're near me.. i can still feel your warmth against me..

and, as bad as it is, i still crave for it

though i've said it multiple times, and have given you (even our friends) signs of my attraction and love for you,

no one will ever know the range of how i feel for you...

... we went from strangers, to friends, to close friends, to best friends, to friends who felt something mutual, to "friends" who don't talk to each other anymore

i don't know if we're still friends, even.

but i still consider you as one

..

it's really hard to let go of you

to let go of all the memories we made

i like you so much

i might even be bold to say that i'm in love with you

you'd help me with things that i didn't understand when we were playing, and i'd help you understand equations that would make your mind go bonkers in class

you'd comfort me and even try to be my "therapist" and have this "therapist time" if you ever see my vent tweets on twitter,

you'd say that you have a lot of occupations which is really funny.. and i still find it ridiculous

you'd send me photos of the food you cooked

you'd tell me when your stomach or you (in general) felt sick because of some "dumb food" you ate

you'd send me silly videos of you... like the barbie ai one.. and the hair cutting one..

you accepted me and didn't judge me, despite me being weird and sending you that one steamy one shot i wrote

we'd watch movies and series together for hours,

play video games together until it's 3 am (minecraft + roblox)

even fell asleep while calling

joined random discord groups and tried to interact with other people, which was so funny and embarrassing

my brother, sister (female older cousin), and board of directors (my closest friends) even approved of you

you'd stay awake so late for me because it's one of the only times that i can call and talk with you after i migrated

and i'd wake up early for you, (and sleep late)

you called me cute,
you told me that i was the prettiest and most perfect girl in the world,
you told me that you were glad that you met me
you told me how i make you smile and just how much you appreciate me
you told me that you liked me

you..made my heart flutter
you made me kick my feet and roll around in bed as i blushed
you made me smile
you made me look forward to waking up
you made me look forward to dreaming because i'd see you in my dreams

I like you

I liked you so, so much

And no one will ever know how much

only God and I will ever know 

perhaps I'd like to keep it this way,

I just want to know if I did something wrong

What caused us to stop talking?

Not even as friends?

Was it the distance between us?

Was I not enough for you?

Did I do or say something?

I thought that you were just busy, and I didn't want to interrupt you

So I didn't text you

And that..cost me (or us) a lot......

Mid October was the last time we truly had a conversation

I also remember the first time you texted me.. asking me about the exam schedules and needing my help with our computer science class..

We didn't really know each other back then, but I vividly remember you sitting next to me on the first day of school.

You also sat behind me twice over the next few quarters of both semesters. 

Truly,

I hope I'll get over you

I hope that you're happy with her

I think that she's lucky to be with someone as kind and caring as you

I'm not sure where this letter is going, but, I miss you.

But (2)

I want to move on and get over you because this is not good for me. So, This is my letter to you, this is me saying good bye to all the happy times we had with each other. And I'll truly, truly miss those.

Well,

This is a farewell from me now ☺️