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I'm not eating enough, I'm sleeping too much,
I'm crying myself to sleep almost every night, and when I'm not crying, I'm sitting in a dark, cold room with just my thoughts.
Can't anyone see something wrong?
There are not even cries anymore
My screams for help are null and void
Even the dial tone of those who said to call falls flat.
Am i not enough for people to care about?
I guess not.
I ruin everything.
I can't even have a normal conversation.
I always end with "just forget i said anything. ignore me, just pretend it didn't happen. "
I'm embarrassed of my own emotions, and no one makes me feel otherwise.
My heart wants me to talk and let it out but my head tells me im fucking insane for thinking anyone would care because no one checks in on me.
No one randomly calls to see if im still alive.
I know I'm not rich or talented, and I know I'm not that smart or pretty, but I'm still a human being.
That's gotta count for something, right?