U don't know how much I like to see the number drop
It's the best feeling ever.
I like having my stomach empty, because then it feels like you are shrinking.
Seeing your own bones is a miracle for me .
But is it worth it? Is it worth it to make urself not bite even a tiny crumb or make urself vomit after the food that u ate even if it's a salad.
Do u want that? No, I don't. But it feels like if I get sick ,someone will finally notice. Then someone will actually care. Because in the fast months I have been giving soo many signs, but no one seems to care. Like nowadays everything is normalised and ur problems just don't matter anymore because others have it worse.
I hate it but love it.
