Mystery Behind Romance [ONE SHOT]

Twisted Healing

Do you really need someone to tell you this? I hurt you, I'm sorry, and I feel terrible that I did it.

It's beautiful to get it, but do you need it?

Did you not realize at the time how excruciating the pain was?

Do you really need their confirmation of how agonizing it was and their approval to let go of it?

You don't need it, you want it.

Because you think that once they admit what they've done to you, you'll feel some relief.

Even if they do, you still have to recuperate from the pain, so even though you believe it will go away, it doesn't.

You have to heal yourself.

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“Lex, may naghahanap sa’yo,” kulbit sa akin ni Shain.

“Baliw, wag mo nga akong pinaglululuko,” giit ko naman at pinagpatuloy ang pag tutok sa librong binabasa kahit pa wala naman duon ang aking isipan. Ang kamay kong kanina pang hawak ang kwintas na nakasabit sa aking dibdib ay siyang nagpapawala sa akin wisyo.

“Gaga ka, meron nga naghihintay lang sa gate, bilisan mo na.”

“Pag ako ginu-good time mo lang masasapak talaga kita, sino ba? ”Banta ko rito. Umiling naman siya agad at kinusa na ang paglilinis ng gamit ko.

“Bilisan mo nalang para malaman mo,” aniya pa na ikinatawa ko nalang.

Matapos naming malinis ang gamit ko, sinabit ko na sa balikat ang bag at tumakbo palabas ng lecture room. Napawi ang ngiti sa labi ko ng maaninaw ko ang bulto ng katawan di kalayuan sa akin.

It was Troy. Ang taong bigla nalang akong iniwan sa ere ng walang pasabi.

I inhaled deeply and shook my eyes to get rid of the tears that were beginning to fall. 

“Anong ginagawa mo dito? Diba may exams ka ngayon? ”Sambit ko agad ng tuluyan akong makalapit sa kaniya.

It's strange, yet he responded to me with a tight hug and a firm smile. I returned the bitter smile.

“It’s been two months. I'm in pain,” derektang sambit ko.

“I just missed you,” bulong nito. Isinantabi ko ang nagbabadyang luha at pabiro ko siyang tinulak at hinampas sa balikat.