How do you make a complex son ? | √

.I made everything myself -

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Today was not an ordinary day. I have never had a normal day in my life

She was just passing by somehow...

Early in the morning, my father came in and woke me up in a way that was not pleasant. My father does not know that my sleep is very weak and light.

He doesn't find anything out of this, so he just opens the door forcefully at me, turns on all the lights in the room, and shouts at me to wake up. Killing me, Dad, is better than this way of waking up

“Wake up, you will go to the company with me today..

I stood up excitedly

Is what I'm hearing true? This is my first time!!

H. Really dad? Will I come with you today!! "

He didn't answer me and left, but don't despair...

I stood up to take a shower and put on clothes to go out. My mind ran through those days a lot

Ever since Jungkook asked me out, he has been talking to me a lot and asking me to go to school

Every day so he can see me at rest and drink cigarettes with me.

But it didn't stop there

Is it normal for him to touch me a lot..?

I mean, I don't understand much about love and dating...

Especially since Jungkook is my gender. I'm a boy like him.

I was nervous when he asked me out

I'm not gay...and I've never thought about love...

I didn't have time to think about something like this while I was suffering every day at home.

But I was afraid of losing Jungkook

He was the only one who would sit with me and talk to me comfortably

Jungkook was listening to me more than talking.

This was enough for me not to lose him

I wanted one thing to stop me from committing suicide and leaving my life

Jungkula was...

Although I'm still trying to understand why he's dating me specifically

And why does he touch me so much? Sometimes it's a bit uncomfortable

I was not accustomed to intimate hugs and him placing his hands on places I did not like for him to touch me.

But I'm afraid to tell him and he'll think I don't love him

Wait

Do I love him...

“We have arrived, sir.”

The previous one added to interrupt my long train of thought. I wish I could stop overthinking