Kundima

CHAPTER 14: "Plan"

Before, I don't believe in happy endings. Kaya I refuse to read love stories with fluff and happy endings. Anti-romantic? Bitter? Lol, hindi 'no. Happy endings were really not my cup of tea. Mainly because I'm a sucker for sad endings, angst, and tragedies.

Wala lang, I find comfort in it. I want my heart and soul wrecked for days. Ang ironic pakinggan, 'no? Siguro, my mind has devolved to the point na 'yan na ang naging favorite genre ko. Lol.

Sino ba kasi ang nasa tamang katinuan ang makakahanap ng "comfort" sa sad endings?

Kung dati, hindi nag e-exist ang word na "happy ending" sa lexis ko. Ngayon, gusto ko nalang maging ikaw at ako hanggang dulo. Bigla nalang akong naging greedy na magkaroon ng happy ending with you.

Hindi naman kasi mapapantayan ng sandamakmak na angst ang pagmamahal na binibigay mo. You change everything in me; you change my perspective on love. You made me love the things that I hated before you made me believe that there were happy endings.
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Sumali ako sa Spoken words poetry contest, umaasang makikita ni Angela performance ko. Not knowing na, Chrisse and Jane set up everything na pala, para makita ni Angela ang performance ko. They promote the livestream sa city kung saan lumipat si Angela.

Suddenly, Jane received a message sa messenger nya.

"Et, Its me, Angela. Nakihiram lang ako ng cp sa classmate ko dito. I miss you et" chat ni Angela kay Jane.

"Et, I miss u. How are you there? Btw, pls watch mo ung livestream na I shared. JJ is there. He joined spoken words poetry para sayo. Hoping na mikita and marinig mo ang poems nya for you" Jane replied.

"Wait... What? Pero it'll make him uncomfortable. I know him well, it's his introvert thingy... Pero the thought na sumali s'ya para marinig ko ang mga poems nya is melting my heart et. I'm crying na." Angela replied.

"He was really devastated the day you went away. Me and Chrisse tried our best to comfort him. Alam mo ba? na sumulat lang naman sya ng more than 100 na poems for you. Et, your bf is so in love with you." Jane replied.

"Et, gusto ko syang ihug ngayon. I can feel how he really miss me. I'll try to chat him." Angela replied.

"Go et!" Jane replied.

On the event. I was so nervous, ang anxiety ko sobrang lala. Pero I was thinking of her, to help me calm down. This is new to me. It's my first time to join such an event. Nanjan din si Chrisse to cheer me up kahit na makulit.

Suddenly, I received a message from an unknown account.

"MyPa, God bless you sa performance mo po 🙏 I am watching rn sa livestream po. I miss you sooooo much po. I know you're anxious rn, pero please, labanan mo yan ngayon ha. Win or lose, I am so proud of you po. I love you always and forever 😘" Angela's message to me from her classmate's account.

After ko binasa ang message ni Angela, saktong tinawag na din ako sa stage para mag perform.

Umakyat na ako sa stage at dahan-dahan kong hinawakan ang microphone, tumingin ako sa mga nanonood, pumikit ako at inisip ko si Angela. Ako Ay nakalma, bumugtong hininga ng malalim at nagsimula nang tumula...

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gabi-gabi nyang kasama...