Car Outside (Ongoing)

You Freak!

Kung hindi lang ako nakaramdam ng alinsangan sa katawan ay hindi ako babangon sa hinihigaan ko. I went straight to my own bathroom and lay down again in the bath tub full of water and soap.

"Why is this happening to me? In the past I couldn't sleep but now it's noon and I'm still lying in bed?"

Napagdesisyunan ko na umalis ng bahay. Nagbabasakali na magkaroon ako ng kasagutan kung mamamasyal ako sa labas.

I have arranged my things and clothes to wear on my walk today. Hindi ko na pinakinggan pa ang mga paalala ng mga kasama ko sa bahay. I want to do something to solve some problem with me, especially with my sleep.

Ilang minutong paglalakad ay nasa tapat na ako ng dalampasigan. My body gradually relaxes when I hear the crash of waves not far away. I slowly approached until the cold water of the sea kissed my soles. I sat on the ground and enjoying the feels of cold breeze.

"If only I could move the house here across the sea." I slowly lay down on the ground and felt the water in my palm. The water is not too high yet but it is already able to touch the lower part of my body.

"I was not wrong that the sea would heal my pain."

Noong mga bata palang kami ay halos lumaki na kaming tatlong magkakapatid sa mga naglalakihang mga malls. Napapalibutan ng mga mamahaling laruan at damit. Nasanay kami sa karangyaan na mayroon ang magulang namin.  Pinangarap ko ito noong bata ako ngunit ipinagkait ito ng magulang namin. Don't they know that simple things like going to the beaches will bring us joy. We spend time together and build happy memories without thinking about anything else.

"When can I experience that again?"

Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. Naramdaman ko na basa na ang manggas ng suot kong longsleeves. I noticed that my upper body was getting wet but I chose to lie still.

My heart beat slowly as if it had found peace. Even though it was cold to wrap my body in water from the sea, I did not mind it. In this way I feel that even for a moment I forget whatever I am going through.

I clutched my chest. It was surprising and suddenly my heart started beating fast.

"Packing sheet!" I heard a loud scream from my side. Just a few seconds later, I felt that she violently grabbed me by the shoulder and shook me.

"Magpapakamatay ka ba! Sana inutusan mo nalang akong gulpihin kita at saksakin ng kutsilyo para agad kang matuluyan! Yawa!" I wanted to speak but I could not because her wet hair was hitting my face. After a while I felt her put her face on my chest as if she wanted to hear something inside me.

"D'yan ka lang tatawag akong tulong!" Tumayo ito at naapakan pa niya ang braso ko dahilan para madulas ito. Ilang sandali lang ay naramdaman kong bumagsak siya at napahiga sa ibabaw ko.

"YOU FREAK! PAPATAYIN MO BA TALAGA AKO!!!"

I moved to get up and let her roll on the ground.

Does he have no idea?

On how heavy she is! I almost suffocated and lost my breath from what she did.

"Bakit ba ikaw pa ang galit? Tinulungan na nga kita!  Ano bang ginawa mo? Gusto mo mag-swimming ngayong hindi ka naman marunong lumangoy!"

Itinaas ko ang kaliwang kamay ko na siyang ikinatahimik niya sa pagsasalita. Kung alam niya lang na gaano ako nagpipigil na bigwasan siya.

"ENOUGH PLEASE!"

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