Today my grandma tried to get me to talk, I didn't talk all day and I've been feeling better. Thank you 🤍Julie🖤 you're a great help when I struggle with my anxiety and depression, I can't really eat much without feeling like I'm going to barf, I hate it.
I hate myself sm rn I can't even explain how stupid I feel, I feel like I'm going to lose all my friends just because I don't talk, how will they react ik that Sage is very religious and will probably try to convince me to talk. But I really don't want to it's a coping mechanism for me, and it makes me feel better.
I constantly need my comfort items with me now, my anxiety has increased and my thoughts of suicide and self harm have increased aswell, I feel like performing my own chest surgery because I'd feel better in my own body.
I hate my life and everything about me, I'm stupid, ugly, insecure, and I don't deserve to exist.
