Natasha one-shots bc why not;))

You're losing me

You don't know when it started, but when you did take notice you couldn't help but pay more attention to the little details of what was going on in your relationship.

You and Natasha had been together for almost 6 years.

You had noticed months ago when nat stopped being as excited to see you when she came home from missions. It went from running into your arms basically picking you up and scattering kisses all over your face, to her heading straight to your shared room without a second glance towards you, while speaking very few words to you.

You told yourself in the beginning that she was probably worn out and too tired to do all the stuff you used to do but you quickly realized it just wasn't the same.

You'd cook dinner for Natasha and sit down with her while she spoke a handful of words about her day and then she'd go finish her reports without another word. As you cleaned up the kitchen and dining area you got lost in your thoughts about how thing used to be between the two of you.

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Natasha was helping you with the cooking to the best of her abilities since she's definitely not the best cook.

You both had your shared playlist playing as you worked on the stove while Natasha was cutting some carrots for you, as you requested.

Natasha had a beaming smile on her face when she looked over her shoulder to see you swaying your hips to the song that was playing while also mumbling the lyrics.

As you were busy cooking she snuck up behind you wrapping her arms around you, "Jesus nat don't do that, you scared me!" you scolded her making her chuckle "I'm sorry, you just look so pretty." She blushes hiding her face in the crook of your neck "Pretty?!  I'm covered in flour all because of you!" You say referring to when Natasha sneezed causing the flour to blow onto you. "You could never look anything else but beautiful to me dorogoy." She nips at your neck making you whimper "Nat stop it." You turn to look at her with a serious face, "Fine, but we will continue this later." She smirks giving you a deep kiss.

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It was your 6th year anniversary when it all shattered.

You woke up to an empty bed and cold sheets beside you.

Not a single text or note from her.

You told yourself she was probably in a rush and had to get there for an urgent meeting or something.

As the day went by you had cooked you and natasha some dinner holding onto that small ounce of hope that she'd remember. You cooked her favorite meal that day, paired it with her favorite wine and even picked out a new set of lingerie you had picked out with the help of wanda, it was a white lacy set, something natasha adored on you.

You were giddy cooking the dish. You played the playlist you and nat would listen to when cooking but as the time went by it was already past midnight -the next day- when natasha arrived
You had already put the food away and drank more than half the bottle of wine.

You sipped on the wine you hand in hand when she walked into the kitchen "There's dinner in the fridge, if you want I can heat it up for you?" you paused.

"it's your favorite." Natasha shook her head "um no thanks babe I'm actually exhausted right now but I'll eat some tomorrow." she said with forced smile before walking to the room.

You let out a shaky breath when she was far enough not to hear it. as you sat there in the dim light, you wondered if it was time. you took deep breaths trying to calm yourself so you wouldn't cry cause if you did, you weren't sure you'd ever stop.

Blinking away any tears that were on the brink of falling, you got up throwing away the now empty bottle of wine.

Walking into your shared room you see Natasha facing the opposite direction fast asleep.

You were trying so hard not to cry because it would lead to the urge to throw up.

You went to the bathroom locking yourself in, letting out a shaky breath.

Turning on the water you sat on the toilet seat with your head in you hands thinking where could you have fucked up.

You thought maybe you weren't pretty enough for her. Maybe she was tired of you. She probably thought you were annoying. You most likely weren't enough for her.

After all the excuses you made up in your head for natashas behavior it hit you all at once, natasha simply just gave up, she stopped trying. its not your fault at all.

You sat there contemplating if you should throw away everything you built and fought for in last 6 years, I mean nat is the one that gave up first and it doesn't even seem to bother her in the slightest, which just infuriates you even more.

You shake your hands to help ground yourself before you got too far into your head.

Finishing your nightly routine, you go to bed having a hard time to sleep but somehow still get a couple of hours of sleep.

Waking up to cold and empty sheets.

That was it.

You made your decision right there.

You weren't going to wait for her anymore. You gave her months and months for her to come reach out to you wether it be to repair what was left of your relationship or to just end it. You were tired of holding the weight of the relationship on your shoulders. It was all honestly so exhausting.

So you started to pack your things.

Quickly calling wanda to ask if you could stay at her place and she of course welcomed you with open arms.

Without a second glance you grabbed your things and left.

Hiiii, how is everyone?