First and Khao were sitting in Khaotungs car. With them - Min-Joo, who was sitting in a child seat that Khaotung had bought weeks ago. First was driving the car, it was quiet. Min-Joo was sleeping and Khaotung knew that after everything his boyfriend had found out and told him today, he probably needed some rest. Khao knew that when First was ready, he would tell him what he needed. He knew-
"Shit.. fuck man..." cursed First and interrupted his boyfriends thoughts with his sobs. "Shit..." he said again and again and Khaotung finally grabbed the other mans left hand. "First..." "I'm sorry..." "No, it's fine, everything's fine. Let it out." said Khaotung and again he heard his boyfriend sigh. "It's not like I'm letting this whole thing get to me. I've already told you that the whole thing was just a kindergarten relationship. But my child was born out of it. My son ! And she said she doesn't care about him. She doesn't care about the child she carried under her heart for almost ten months, but the girls she carried under the same heart shortly afterwards are her life? Her everything? Our Min doesn't deserve that. I know I did everything right and I'm glad she has no contact with him. I know he has two fathers who love him and that's all that matters.. But it still hurts, knowing that she said those awful things about my kid." Khaotung hummed to show his boyfriend that he was listening.
"And I had an argument with my brother over such crap? That robbed us of months of time and completely ruined our good relationship!" "But now that you've been honest with each other, there's a chance that you two can get along again, Fir Fir. That's a good thing." "My brother had a bad conscience and treated me like dirt instead of telling me the truth." "Areum, more or less outed you and cheated on you. And she more or less betrayed your child and abandoned him. I'm sure Fiat was so angry." "I know... You know Khao, Fiat and I had a really great bond. He was my best friend, we had no secrets from each other. Fiat and I protected each other and he was there for us from the beginning when Min was on the way. He defended us from others, even got into a fight once because someone was talking badly about me and Areum and Min-Joo. Him and I were like Yin and Yang. When he suddenly became so mean to me and then said it was because I was gay, I didn't recognize my own twin anymore." "I'm sure Fiat regrets a lot of stuff that had happened. He surely thought it's best if he keeps some distance because he knew he couldn't stay silent. It wasn't the best idea for sure, but I am glad that he finally told you." First nodded and wiped away some tears from his face. "I just wish I knew that it wasn't because of me.. All this time, I was wondering what was wrong with me. Whether my love was worth less. I was wondering what I had to do to win back my brothers love. I suffered so much from this argument, the loss of my brother. I was wide awake at nights and prayed that he would forgive me for being gay." "How did he even find out officially?" "Because I never really came out... He said he had sensed it. In one of our arguments, I told him, which was probably my biggest mistake. I was afraid he would tell anyone. He didn't, but he told me every day how disgusting I was. He made it sound so serious, but that spark of pain in his eyes somehow always gave me hope that he didn't mean it that way."
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"Min-Joo, wake up." Khaotung said calmly, watching as the little one slowly opened his eyes. "Hey baby, where here." He said smiling and Singto immediately stretched out his arms. Khao unbuckled the little one and took him in his arms before closing the door and going over to First. The young couple drove for hours with the little one and were finally there - Uttaradit. When First stood crying in front of Khaotungs condo and he had tried to calm his boyfriend down, First suddenly said that he wanted to leave. "shall we run away?" he asked and Khaotung was visibly confused. They quickly shook the thought off, but decided to go away for a few days. Somewhere quiet, just the little family. Nobody else. That would mean that they would miss a few days of university again, but the way their lives were going at the moment, they wanted nothing more than to finally have a few days of peace and quiet. So the two of them drove back to Firsts parents, went into Min-Joos room and packed some clothes. His parents ran after them, confused, followed them through the whole apartment, but First didn't answer them. He couldn't. It hurt him too much to know the truth. Khao stood there with Min-Joo in his arms and tried to protect the little one from the hustle and bustle and now they were here - in front of a big hotel in a small, quiet place, almost 9 hours away from Bangkok. "Let's go inside." Khao said and grabbed Firsts hand.
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"Hello, welcome, how can I help you?" "Hello, good morning. We have reserved an apartment. In the name of Rattanakitpaisan." "Yes, I see it here. Just a moment." The woman turned around and went over to a little shelf. "An apartment?" asked First, astonished. "Yes, it was so short notice and they only had apartments left. Don't worry, it's already paid for." "No, Khao, no. I didn't want you to pay. I was the one who wanted to leave, I don't want you to pay so much, I-" "Hey, shhh. It's all okay." he said and smiled. "I'll pay you back. Every cent." "No, you won't, honey. I won't take the money." said Khao and stroked Firsts cheek. "Por, why are you crying?" "Because I'm a little sad Singto." "Why are you sad ?" "Well Singto, sometimes things happen that make people feel a lot of emotions. This thing made me feel sad." "Oh, it's okay por. You said it's okay to be sad sometimes and boys are allowed to cry, so you can be sad, but not for too long !" Min-Joo said, making his dads smile. "I'm here for you por." He added and blew his dad a kiss. "Soooo.. Here are the keys, this is for the check-in, I need your ID and an autograph please." Khao signed the paper and showed the document and finally they were able to go up to their apartment.
It was big with a childrens room, a bedroom. The bathroom had a big shower made entirely of glass and the apartment had its own small kitchen. "Do we want to have breakfast downstairs in the hotel or do we make something ourselves?" "Let's go have breakfast." said First after a moments thought. Khao nodded and looked at the clock. It was just after 4 a.m. "I'll put Min-Joo down for a bit longer." explained Khao and took the little one, who had already fallen asleep in his arms, into the room, where he cuddled him in with his cuddly toy until he was asleep again and finally went back to his boyfriend. Khao ran up to the older one and hugged him tightly. "I just feel betrayed. It hurts me so much.. It hurts me so much because I feel betrayed and I know that my son wasn't treated the way he deserved... Until we found you." "Fir fir.." Khao said and gave him a kiss. "You two are my family. I love you more than my life and I won't let anyone hurt you again."
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Hey hey :)
Another dramatic chapter.
Do you think First and Fiat will reconcile ? I'm curious what you think :)
See you in the next chapter ^^
-Jessy
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Fanfiction🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙 >>When will it get better ?<< he thought and lit up another cigarette. "It won't get better.." He told himself. 🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙 Khaotung, a bubbly, friendly young boy, who's been through a lot. He makes sure to...