May I Love You? Vkook

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A lazy morning.

It's Sunday, that means it's a holiday. Taehyung doesn't feels pain in his lower areas. He snuggled to jungkook's naked chest who hugged him so securely back.

Recently they changed the curtains, and yeah it's white. And they cleaned all house together and ended up in bathroom eating eachothers. Mr and Mrs Na invited them a dinner night with them---- they cooked with the older couple, had dinner with teasing eachother, Mrs Na and taehyung teasing Mr Na and jungkook.

Taehyung noticed how jungkook became so lively with them. Thanks to Mr Na, the old man was very helpful when the older couple got to know about jungkook's panic attacks. Mr Na said that only we can do is support him and give him a environment that provides happiness and a stress-free life.

They often ended up in making out in every single place in the home. The days went smoothly. Taehyung opened his eyes and looked at jungkook who were sleeping soundly his puffed cheeks and pouty lips which were swollen because of him, the hickeys on his neck. Jungkook's hair became too long in this month, taehyung loves whenever jungkook comes to him to tie his hair up.

In this month taehyung witnessed how much efforts jungkook puts in everything to make taehyung happy with him. Sometimes taehyung feel that kind of fear that jungkook one day loose himself---- but it's just a fear only.

It's because, that guy afraid of making taehyung unsatisfied with his actions. Wake up early in the morning before taehyung, feeding him with his own hands, cleaning him after love making, making cute flower crowns for taehyung, doing his meditations etc...

To make taehyung happy with him.

Taehyung yawned while getting up. Feeling movements beside of him jungkook opened his eyes.

"Oh you up sunshine?" Taehyung blushed and nodded, but he laid on jungkook's chest suddenly. Jungkook holds him to him and Combes his hair.

"Wanna do bath first or have breakfast?"

"Um bath can I get a bubble bath today hubby?"

"Of course my gets what my baby wants" taehyung giggles and hugged jungkook tightly.

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Jimin gritted his teeth nth time. Yoongi was watching him for about 3 weeks. The same drama everyday--- why jimin can't give a chance to jungkook to prove himself?

"He didn't attended my call again" jimin murmured. He was trying to call jungkook in this past 3 weeks. Jungkook didn't answered.

"What he thinks about himself!?" He walked towards the couch and plopped on it.

"Why are you trying to get him? Leave them alone for their own good." Jimin glares at yoongi who cradles neoul.

"Look Minnie, they must be good in terms right now. Don't interfere. Try to give them some personal space " jimin gritted again--- his eyebrows knitted together.

Yoongi sighed, he can't stop Jimin's these types of talks.

"Can't you give him a chance? Let him do it, even if you're thoughts became true then I'll make sure jungkook won't breath peacefully anymore okay?" Yoongi cupped Jimin's cheeks which were wet by crying.

"You know that we can't accept jungkook like that but we can't push away him from taehyung too. All we have to give him a chance if he fails I'll make taehyung marry to jeonghan my brother. He likes taehyung for a long time no? If jungkook fails taehyung will obey us, he will marry whom we choose for him.

Jeonghan is very sweet guy, he were so worried about taehyung since they completed their studies afterall they were classmates no? When I caught him staring at taehyung's picture in his wallet he confessed that he likes taehyung he wanted marry him--- to love him. But every chaos happened." Jimin knows jeonghan had feelings for taehyung but taehyung didn't know. Jimin used to tease the younger min a lot, jimin also likes the guy because he is perfect for taehyung.

Jimin was hugged by yoongi again--- placing a kiss on his hair they parted away. Jimin about to call taehyung he saw one thing that made him shock, he looked at yoongi who were looking at him with same expression.

Jungkook was on the call for about 23 minutes straight, hearing their conversations untill jimin and yoongi noticed the phone.

And the call hanged up.

Jungkook ran towards the nightstand where he put his phone. He saw there are too many missed calls from jimin and yoongi. He bits his lips--- maybe they called to know the whereabouts of taehyung? But they talks about everyday--- maybe the called him for knowing his whereabouts? A sunshine smile bloomed on his face--- yoongi hyung and jimin hyung started to care for him---

Then again jimin's call, he attends the call with a smile, he was about to say hello he heard that---

"I can't trust him with taehyung he will hurt him--- he's acting yoongi! All he does this so called acting for getting that licence to hurt taehyung more why can't you understand!?"

"Can't you give him a chance? Let him do it, even if you're thoughts became true then I'll make sure jungkook won't breath peacefully anymore okay?"

"You know that we can't accept jungkook like that but we can't push away him from taehyung too. All we have to give him a chance if he fails I'll make taehyung marry to jeonghan my brother. He likes taehyung for a long time no? If jungkook fails taehyung will obey us, he will marry whom we choose for him.

Jeonghan is very sweet guy, he were so worried about taehyung since they completed their studies afterall they were classmates no? When I caught him staring at taehyung's picture in his wallet he confessed that he likes taehyung he wanted marry him--- to love him. But every chaos happened."

The guy's eyes became watery, but it didn't fell from his eyes. They're planning to marry taehyung off to that guy? Jungkook felt that anger inside of his heart but it suddenly stopped.

Because who's he to them to say that it's not gonna happen? They will give any response to him? No. All they will do is humiliation, curse at him, accuse him for everything he did to taehyung.

Will he have that right to hold taehyung to his heart? Yes he has but only he knows it. Everyone is worried for taehyung only, he can't say they're wrong but, he's changing for everyone---- he's shaping himself for everyone. All he wanted faith in him.

But their doubts caused generate that kind of fear that made him think about killing himself at the same time changing for taehyung. What he did? He became like his own mother, he did cheated taehyung--- he became a person that he doesn't wanted.

But he didn't cheated when he realised that he's in love with taehyung. There is no one in his life other than taehyung. Because that guy taught jungkook that the same love can grew up with you, that only love can change everyone, only love can do everything.

But his love and his efforts are only a act for those whom taehyung loves the most. All he did for making them trust him that he won't hurt taehyung anymore, he loves him.

Maybe jimin and yoongi is right? Taehyung deserves who loves him since the start. And he didn't had that kind of feeling of getting butterflies kiss on his abdomen. Jeonghan, he don't know anyone in that name. But he likes taehyung, maybe more than him? And from the start.

Because of him taehyung didn't get the love which he deserves. And he stole jeonghan's oppertunity to love taehyung and have the other full of himself.

Jungkook's throat pains, he choked. He could breath but he felt suffocated. He could taste the iron inside of his mouth, he have chewed his lips that ended up in bleeding.

Taehyung, he deserves better. And jungkook isn't better for taehyung it's what they think. Maybe they're right? He's not good for taehyung even after he gives everything that once he failed to provide? Taehyung he can't see jungkook like this---

Losing himself again in middle of their room, shivering like a dead leaf, with eyes puffed teary, runny nose, and a bleeding mouth and heart.

Taehyung deserve better.

And he felt the migraine pooling again in his head, all he could do is hardly punch on his head to keep that headache down. He hit hard, hard again--- he's gonna loose again--- no one has faith in him, everyone wants him to leave taehyung and give him a chance to live a better life.

What he can do?

Soon his vision blurred, then black swallowed everything his head hit on the nightstand and he fell down.

Author Kim
TBC