My WildFlower ~ jayules

the sleepover - 29

saturday
📍covey household
11:00 am

~ jules pov

i woke up before jayden. i was up at 10 and i did my morning routine. i have work at 1 and so does livy we're both leaving at the same time and getting off at the same time which is 8. she's driving herself to work today though. she let me know.

my uniform is on jayden's bed. i don't know when she goes to work i assume later than me if she's still sleeping. last night i got a sudden wave of sadness. which is why i was drunk. and when jayden came back i was happier until i started thinking about how mj makes her feel.

my mind was telling me a lot. so i just went quiet and i went to sleep. this happens a lot to me. one minute im fine then the next i wanna die or im crying. when i drink i don't feel it as bad. it's almost like im normal when under the influence.

but nobody will ever understand. right now im downstairs in the dining room by myself eating cereal. just thinking. i heard someone go into the kitchen. i just continue to eat, "oh my lord you scared me" i heard josie say

i look at her and chuckle softly before looking away, "sorry" i say

"are you ok?" josie asks

i think before shrugging, "umm.. josie.." i say

she came and sat right next to me at the table. i have all her attention, "yes?" she asks

i hesitate, "..im having those thoughts again.." i say weakly.

when i met her eyes i saw concern all over her face. she rubs my back, "ok that's fine we can get you therapy again if you like" josie says

i shake my head, "talking doesn't help.." i say

"what does help?" she asks

alcohol. i sigh, "i don't know.. i think i just need to go home to my dad" i say

"you can talk to me sweetie" she says

don't cry don't cry don't cry. i swallow but my throat feels tight, "..i just wish i was normal." i say softly

i feel my eyes tearing up. josie pulls me into a hug which made me break down. right in her arms.

12:00 pm

~ jayden pov

i woke up at 11:30 and jules wasn't here. in my bed. so i just did my morning routine and showered. i'm going to work at 2 to 8. im fresh out the shower im half dressed. i was interrupted by jules. she came in the room but its ok i had on everything but my shirt. i still don't have a shirt on.

my wet hair is down. i'm just sitting on my bed leaned back listening to her talk. she's standing infront of me. i think she's been crying, "i really wanna go out tonight so i wanted to ask you if you wanted to come with me or not" jules says

i scrunch my eyebrows, "go where?" i ask

she fidgets with her bracelet, "just somewhere.. i want you to come because you make me feel better all the time.. but i understand if you don't want to." she says

i observe her, "are you ok?" i ask

she sighs deeply, "please don't ask me that" she says

she looks overwhelmed, "i'm sorry.. i just.. i'm worried that's all." i say

she nods, "i understand" she says

she meets my eyes again. we're looking at each other, "if you come with me we would have fun but.. if not can you come stay the night at my dads with me?" she asks