𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐒 || 𝐉𝐉𝐊

38.

A few weeks later:

"Where's Y/n?"

A fine day-Jungkook arrives back home after finishing some buisness with the other clans and was eager to see his wife who actually had been avoiding him from the past weeks.

It wasn't like in a bad way but maybe because she was shy—don't know how to act normally after that one night in thailand. She had been a mess till then and he was actually enjoying how timid she had became after that day.

She wouldn't fight him-act all shy and reserved around him like a girl who's just a newbie in love. He honestly found it so wholesome—to see so many new sides of her,there's was no way he was ever going to get enough of her.

"She's been in the library for quite a while now"

Making his way to the private library in his mansion—he closes and locks the door behind him to finally have a face to face talk with her. He wanted to hear his voice—for his usual Y/n to come back to him.

"Babygirl?"

Looking here and there-through each and every shelf,there was no sign of her and he frowns.

Where could she be?

But as he glances at the last shelf—his eyes go from confused to the most softest,finding her sleeping so quietly resting against the shelf with a book opened in her lap.

Oh god—what about my heart? It's like,she's my pacemaker. She gives me emotions that I felt were never even made for me.

Walking closer to her,he sits in front of her to take a clear look of her sleeping face. To look at her—to look at his peace.

"For weeks—I've been losing my mind"

His fingers pulling forward to reach out for the strands of her hair and bring them closer to his lips.

"I have not held you in my arms,I have not looked at you properly,touched you,heard you—listened to your voice. You have successfully made me insane with your desire. Desires that I used to despise"

His voice a mere desperate whisper. His mind going crazy over the woman that was so peacefully slept in front of him. The memories of the night he held her in his arms all night so fresh in his mind—like a daydream.

"I don't know what peace feels like Y/n—all throughout my life. But I do know that it must feel like you"

He was looking at her like his whole world belonged into her. It was such a new and blooming feeling that he letting inside of him—scared and excited at the same time—but he wasn't fearful anymore.

He was going to protect her—to make her happy. To give her everything that Aisha couldn't have. Peace,love,health. Everything that will be enough for her to sleep like this forever,without any worries and stress of the world—he wanted to give her the whole entire world.

I am—so in love with her that my heart feels like it's going to explode. It's like i've crossed an entire ocean and have finally reached the shore. Like—i've been finally starting to live again.

His eyes—on her all still for 2 hours. He had been staring at her,not an ounce of bore in his eyes,the same expression blossoming in his eyes and that was love. Admiration. Softness.

He looked at her,studying each and every detail of hers. Not getting enough of her and he could never,she was too much of perfection.

I look at you and it terrifies me. Terrifies me what I would do for you. I'd fight my own demons for you—rip apart the whole world—cross heavens for you. It's too early to fall in love with you this deep but I have Y/n and I don't know what to do.