My Pulse

Chapter 29: Cian O'Shea

I barely slept last night thinking about Quinn sleeping in the same room as Rory. Not to mention the meeting coming up tomorrow with everyone. There is so much to fucking do today. Yet the only thing I can think about is the picture perfect sight of my cum leaking out of Quinn's pink pussy. When she told me she was ovulating something primal took over and it was a basic instinct to get inside her. The look on her face when I came was full of desperation and it only made my cock harder. I want to fill her completely and make her mine. The thought of pulling out of her actually hurt. That's not going to happen. Ever. Even if she wanted me to I will distract her with pleasure until it's too late. The odds are already so stacked against us and I need to tie my queen to me irrevocably. I was getting hourly text updates from a grumpy Quill and Ryee but I didn't give a shit. I needed to know what she was doing and how she was acting. According to Rylee, I am glad I wasn't there or I may have snapped Rory's neck. His text had made me almost break my phone as it is. Rylee texted me "She has everyone wrapped around her finger in love doesn't she?" He must have seen it too, how Rory is clearly in love with Quinn. She denies it but I know she has to know. She just doesn't want to lose him, that's why she plays along. Quinn isn't in love with Rory and I think he knows that too. She does love him, which is evident since she refuses to leave his side. It's the morning after we came home and I am waiting for an update from Quill and Rylee. I am already ready and have made some calls and responded to queries about the meeting time and place. Everything is set for the new location I have been assured as much. I am on the phone telling my movers Quinn's apartment address when I get a text from Rylee. I tell the person to gather the belongings there and bring them to this new address.
I look down at my phone and white hot fury runs through me. I am grabbing my jacket and out the door in a second. I call Rylee back immediately. "You saw what?" I ask him menacingly. "I went to lay eyes on her like you said first thing this morning and she was sleeping in the cot with him." "Has she woken up yet?" I ask sharply. "No." Rylee says back immediately. "I'm on my way." I snap and hang up the phone. I walk past a startled receptionist at the hospital because I know what room she is in. I don't bother when the woman yells after me "Sir, Sir you need to sign in!" I ignore her. Then I see Quinn. She is standing with two coffees just outside of Rory's dad's room. When she sees me she jumps. "Cian, what are you doing here?" She asks me glancing back at Rylee and Quill. "Coming to pay my respects of course." I tell her as I walk up and pull her to me. She can tell I am upset and she starts to reason with me. "He was crying, Cian. I promise he is just my friend." "We will talk about this later." I whisper sharply in her ear. "You have some serious balls showing your face here." Rory says as he steps out of his dad's room. This boy is seriously testing my control. I am barely hanging on by a fucking thread. I think Quinn knows it because she quickly addresses Rory. "Rory, he's here for me." She tells him and he looks at her. "What are you talking about?" Rory asks, clearly taken aback. "Would you like to tell him or should I?" I say as smoothly as I can. I look at Quinn waiting for her to answer the question. When she doesn't I say coolly, "Quinn is moving in with me." I watch Rory's entire body stiffen and his face turns cold. "Over my dead fucking body." Rory says so loud everyone turns to look at him. I look him up and downnot at all phased. I see Rylee and Quill stand in the corner of my eye and watch Quinn take a panicked look at them. I wave them off and they sit back down behind me. I step up to Rory staring him down and Quinn starts to move in between us. "Trust me that can be arranged." I say darkly meeting Rory's eyes. "Cian!" Quinn yells and steps in front of me. Rory puts his hand around her forearm pulling Quinn away from me. I am just about to lose it entirely when Quinn pulls out of Rory's grasp and turns around to face him. "I have to go back with Cian." She tells Rory and his face twists in hurt and confusion. "I can't really explain it yet, but I will be back first thing tomorrow. We have an important thing to do tomorrow. I will come see you after that." Quinn adds quickly diffusing the tension. Rory just looks at Quinn in shock. I motion to Rylee and Quill and they stand up coming toward us. "Quinn, are you sure?" He asks her again and I am losing my patience. "Yes, I am sorry. I had to see you though even with everything going on." Quinn tells her friend. I go to grab ahold of Quinn and Rory says, "Wait! How can I get a hold of you? There is something wrong with your old number." Rory says quickly after us. "I will call you, trust me. I have a phone again." She assures him. "Is it the same number you called me from when you were in Tahiti?" Quinn's entire body tenses and it takes everything in me not to demand what phone he is referring too. Later I tell myself. "No." Quinn just says but she is looking at me. The look in her eyes is as fearful as it is sweet. My queen has been up to something and I am going to figure out what. "I will call you!" Quinn shouts back to Rory as I take her forearm and briskly lead her out.
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"Where are we going?" Quinn asks me as Rylee and Quill drive us back to our new compound. "We're going home." I tell her and pull her close. Quinn is as tense as ever on the drive home. "Back to my parents house?" She asks up at me and I nod. This is the first time she will see it after the renovations. I hope she likes the house. I won't deny I had them design it with her in mind. The entire home is ocean themed. It fits the home well because it sits on the seaside. A perfect castle for my siren queen. I have never seen such a beautiful view. I want to propose to Quinn again on that cliff that overlooks the sea. I will win her over. I see I am close. She loves me. I know it. Now I just need to convince her of it. We pull up to what once was their family's driveway but now has a large gate encompassing the property. Rylee nods at the guy who stands by the front gate and it slides open for us. "This fence goes around the property." I tell Quinn and she looks at me in awe as she takes in the house. It's amazing how they transformed this home in such a short time. Quinn's mouth drops open as we pull up and stop in front of the house. "Do you like it?" I ask her as she stares at the changes. I added a large entryway area onto the front of the house. It towers in an exotic arch that embraces the original structural columns of the home. I didn't want to change it too much but I wanted to make it ours. "Cian, I love it." She says and I lead her inside to show her more. She is impressed with the new entry way and I have to admit I am too. My architects did an amazing job. Quinn gasps when she walks into the living room and registers the sea theme. "Cian, it's perfect." She tells me and I watch her take in the room. The fish tank in the middle of the room and the light blue walls. The sunlight is perfect at this time of the day making the walls almost shine sea white. I added arched windows to let the light in and see the view. I also extended the bottom floor and created a long room where you can sit and enjoy the view on the cliffside of the house. The windows are all arched and its the perfect place for your morning coffee or meditation. "Wow this is amazing." She tells me in awe as she takes in the view. "Just wait till you see our room." I tell her. I lead her up stairs and she pauses admiring all the subtle art. "They did a great job decorating." Quinn tells me. "I had them decorate it for you. I wanted it to be like the ocean, like the color of your eyes." I tell her and watch her breathing start to change as she stares at me. Quinn smiles at me and her eyes literally twinkle. "This is our room?" She asks me and I nod closing the distance between us. "The windows have completely transformed this room." She says in awe and I have to agree. The arched windows on either side of the bed situated on the farthest wall now showcase the view of the cliffs. The natural sunlight filters in so well that I bought a canopy bed with soft white black out curtains. Now looking at it this room is fit for a queen. The walls are a pale pastel blue and there is a classic fur rug at the foot of the bed. "Yes, this is our room." I tell her as I put my hands on her hips and pull her into me. "Do you love it?" I ask her as I move her hair to the left side of her neck. Quinn nods and leans into me. Her body responds to mine so well. I kiss her collarbone and my hand goes around to grasp her throat. She pushes against me and I pull her into me roughly holding onto her. I'm so full of rage that I could start shaking now that we're alone. Someone has betrayed me and so has she. "So who's phone did you use to call Rory in Tahiti my mo Cushile?" I ask hoarsely in her ear. She tenses in my grip and tries to wiggle out of my grasp. "Rory was confused; he was talking about Croatia when we were both taken away by the FbI, not Tahiti." She tries to tell me. I look at her and for a second she thinks I'm going to believe that fucking lie. I turn her around and start backing her up toward the bed. "You think I can't tell when you're lying to me?" I say and watch her step back flush against the bedpost. "I'm not lying." Quinn says as she flutters her long black lashes at me. "You know I will find out sooner or later." I tell her honestly, closing in on her. Quinn looks at me with her plush lips and I am just glad I already closed the door. With the men living here for the time being I will have to be more careful. I have Quinn pinned between me and the bed and it's just where I want her. "Which one of my men gave you a phone to use Quinn?" I ask her and see the surprise flash across her face. "Who said it was one of them?" She tells me sweetly. "It had to be one of them." I say just as mockingly sweet pushing my throbbing erection into her belly. "Well it wasn't." She tells me defiantly. I put my hand on her chin and make sure she is looking at me. "Do you know what I will do to another man if they touch what's mine?" I ask her as I stare into her ocean sky eyes. "I have a pretty good idea." Quinn says and surprises me by stepping up to sit on the bed. She raises her right foot to me and I catch her leg. "Let's just say I don't fucking share." I tell her as I slowly unzip and remove her shoe. She watches me drop the shoe to the floor and then brings the other leg up for me. I gauge her reaction when the second shoe hits the floor in the silent room. The only thing I can hear is her soft breathing as my hands travel up the path of her tights. I hook my fingers in the waistline of them and see her tongue flash out to wet her plush lips. My god, she is my fucking cryptonite. I know she is still upset from earlier but her body can't resist me. All it takes is one touch for her to submit. That's right Yoir mine and your body knows it. I just have to convince that beautiful mind of hers. I can barely wait another second as I pull off her tights trying not to rip them. "Fucking rip them." Quinn says and I yank them off with a guttural growl. "Do you want me baby?" I tease her as I strip down myself. "Take off your shirt and bra." I order her as I crawl on top of her. "I asked you a question." I say as I kiss my way up her leg, her inner thigh and bite at her panties. Quinn lets out a loud moan and I rip off her panties too."Yes, Cian." She moans. "Yes, what my lover?" "Yes, I want you." Quinn tells me squirming under me. I push two fingers into her sex and Quinn cries out. "You're so wet for me baby." I praise her and worship her wetness. My queen is so responsive to me. She was made for me. We were made for each other and I am utterly convinced of that. Quinn pushes impatiently at my boxers when I settle my length against her. I chuckle and pin her hands above her head with one of my own. Her ocean eyes sparkle with determination and desire. I love everything about this woman. Did I really just think that? No, I appreciate everything she has to offer me. That's better I think to myself as I push on her clit with my thumb. "Ahh!" Quinn moans and bucks her hips underneath me while trying to free her hands. "I don't think so, baby." I tease her as I push her back into the mattress with my hard body. "Cian." Quinn moans my name, the way I like, in her sexy breathless voice. "I know, I feel it too," I groan out as I push down my own boxers hastily. The overwhelming power to be joined hangs in the air and Quinn gently lifts her hips to align with mine. I guide my cock to her entrance and rub the tip over the top of her folds. She is so damn wet I am sucked in as I patiently push into her. I watch my dick sink into her slowly and I am so turned on. "Faster, Cian." Quinn begs as I gently bury myself inside her tight heat. "Slow, baby. We're going slow." I tell her and then lean down to kiss her neck. I want to savor this and cum so deep in her that my seed takes root. I start to move and she greedily bares down when I push into her. I can tell it's driving her mad when she starts to move her hips so I hit that spot deep inside. I pull out and slide in slowly again revealing every inch of her tightness. "I can't go slow right now." Quinn groans out annoyed. "Tell me what you want then." I say as I pull out abruptly and flip her over onto her stomach. She lets out a surprised gasp and I smack her perfect little ass. I thrust into her from behind when she cries out from the sting of my hand. "Cian!" Quinn cries out when I push in all the way. "Is this what you want, baby?" I murmur as I watch her soft black hair caress her spine. "Yes, baby I need this. I need you just like this." She admits and then cries out when I twist her nipple roughly between my fingers. I know she secretly loves that because her sweet little pussy creams up for me. I can't hold on for much longer when her velvet soft walls tighten around my cock. Quinn's hot sex is quivering around me in long tight convutions that take the breath out of me. She is so distracted withher own pleasure that I position myself behind her at the best angle to reach her cervix. My thighs tight to her ass as I hold her pelvis straight for me. I cum the hardest in my life shooting my essence right into her core. At this moment I know I will never be able to live without her. She murmurs something and tries to wiggle but I hold tight to my position. I push into her with shallow strokes as my cock softens inside her heat making sure to empty myself completely. I lean over her and she whimpers with my weight as my body positions her pelvis up toward the sky.
I finally collapse to the side pulling out of my princess and watch as she falls asleep. I hold her not wanting to leave but knowing I have work to do. I gently pull away from Quinn and she mumbles but then just rolls over. I take one last look at her naked in my bed. I can only see a small amount of my cum on the sheets and it makes me smirk. Before I know what I'm doing I gather the release and rub it back Into her plush pink lips. Where it belongs. I pull the blanket over her and pull the curtains shut on the bed. I take a quick shower satisfied with myself but I am consumed by this telephone lie of Quinns. It had to have been one of my men who gave her a phone. Maybe Kieran? I think first. I saw them together and the sight was enough to drive my jealousy. I want to throw my fist through the wall at the thought of them speaking after I warned her to stay away. I guess I don't know it was Kieran and I can't accuse him unless I am sure. He is my oldest and trusted friend. I, however, know the allure of my queen so I am not convinced either way. I get dressed quietly and head down to my office. Quinn is still sleeping soundly in our bed. The sight makes me immensely satisfied and I feel something twist in my chest. I can't lose her is my only thought as I round the corner to my office. I shut myself in and get rid of all the noise. Why the fuck is Quinn lying to me? I sit down behind my computer and track the outbound calls from my property in Tahiti. Then I see a call to the U.S. at around midnight on the call logs and know it has to be it. However, it only shows the recipient's number and not the person who made the call. At least I can prove the call to Quinn and my team. One of my teammates knows something that's for sure. I call my best guy to look into this lead further and see if he can make anything of it. After returning a few important emails I remember I need to grab the wine I chose for our first dinner in our new house together. I am just about to the cellar when I hear a commotion below me in the library I think. I can hear perfectly through the classic metal vent built into the floor.
"The only reason Cian wants to marry you Quinn is because it ensures he will take over. Don't you see? Without you none of this was going to be possible. It's why he pursued you in the first place. He needed you to make this all happen." Kieran clearly says and I am almost frozen in shock. I will fucking kill him with my bare hands that bloody bastard. Quinn lets out a surprised sob and Kieran continues heartlessly. "He also knew where you were when you went into FBI custody. He waited for O'Connor to attack your family and didn't warn the FBI knowing full well he would take you and it would dissipate Grady's ranks with a full out war. That's when we attacked after that. The real reason were in danger is." I burst into the room and interrupt him, "That's enough." I say so furiously that it echoes in the room. "What the fuck is this?" I growl at Quinn and she steps back toward the corner of the room. Quinn looks to the door quickly and I move in front of it. "Someone better answer me right fucking now." I say turning my attention to Kieran. "He was just graciously filling me in on how you have been using me this entire time." Quinn tells me and steps closer. "Is that right?" I say and raise my eyebrows at them. I turn to Quinn. "And how would he know that?" I ask her calmly. She turns and looks at Kieran who is eyeing me like I will pounce any minute. "Is it true you need me for this take over?" She asks me sharply. "It's true that no one will question us together." I tell her honestly. "Cian." She protests and I continue, "Would it be harder without you? Yes, it would most likely be a bloody battle with lives lost."
Whatever this is, it's going to backfire on Kieran as long as I can keep myself together. I look at Quinn and tell her "Like I told you the very first night in Tahiti I want you by my side. To rule with me here. It doesn't mean anything without you." I say trying to reason with her. "You would start a war for this spot with or without me?" She asks silently, looking up at me. "You know I would baby." I tell her with a smile and she meets my gaze sweetly. I don't miss the way her eyes shimmer at my confession. Kieran laughs out loud making Quinn jump beside me, "Maybe you two are perfect for each other." He says, cocking his head to peer at us.
I just look at her. "I will make this simple for you baby. Do you want Kieran?" I ask Quinn, noting her every action. "She doesn't have all the facts to make a decision yet." Kieran yells at Cian. Quinn turns to me and demands "Tell me everything." She says. "I will tell you alone." I tried to tell her. "No, tell me right now." She says strongly. I look at her and sigh. This woman is maddening. I want to drive my fist through Kieran's face but I settle for the wall behind me. "Cian!" Quinn screams and rushes over amidst the mess. I cage her against the wall and hold my breath as I start to tell her the whole truth. "I may have pursued you because of who you are but I know you know this is more than that now. I don't have to tell you that our connection is real. I haven't been the most up front with you but I told you how important revenge was to me. I have never lied about who I am. You are the strongest woman I know and anyone could take over with you on their arm. Not just because of your name but your heart and temperament are right to rule. I had to wait for Grady to take you, baby it was the only way. It would have been a suicide mission and we all would have died. I knew he wouldn't hurt you." I tell My Mo Cuishle, the woman I can't live without. The woman I can't help but love. I do love her and I don't want to fight it anymore. White hot light fills my chest and I drown in the sheer intensity of it. I look up at Quinn with my dark green eyes and demand again "Do you want him?" I ask and I see Kieran move toward us. "Get the fuck back before I snap your neck you bloody traitor." I spit at Kieran. Quinn meets Kieran's eyes over my shoulder and whispers "I'm so sorry Kieran." Kieran isn't one to ever put up much of a fight. We both watch as he leaves the room with one last deadly look from me. I will deal with him tomorrow. I gather myself and reign in my feelings, "Do you believe me?" I ask her, needing her to understand. She surprises me when she gently nods. "Is that everything?" She asks, testing me. "There is one more thing." I tell her as there is no reason to keep her in the dark. "The real reason we are tightening up our security is because the FBI wanted someone else to rule." I tell her casually trying to sound normal. "I thought you said they wanted you to take over?" She asks me directly. "They did after we threatened them. That is how we really got immunity. It's how we were able to come back home." I tell her quickly before she freaks out. "Threaten who how?" Quinn asks with her full attention. "My team planted bombs around Dublin. We never planned on actually setting them off." I add but shes instantly furious. "Cian that is so wrong." She tells me shaking her head. "It was the only way, baby." I tell her. "It wasn't! You didn't have to do any of this." She yells in frustration. Now I am pissed. I have had it. "What are you wishing for now? For me to have never met you? To have never pursued you in the first place? Let O'Grady, the person who killed both of our families rule while we hide away from him.Or worse yet have him take you away from me. Fuck that." I tell her and I don't regret a word. Quinn looks at me and she is crying now. This battle is mostly within her and she is the only one who can make this decision. "You know everything now, Quinn. You know who and what I am. It's time for you to decide." I say and she is staring up at me mesmerized. I trail my thumb over her plush lower lip and she closes her eyes. When she opens them I see perfection. I see the aqua ocean sky in the middle of the day. The soft waves of the morning. "I already have. I love you even though I hate myself for it." Quinn says, smirking into my gleaming eyes. A warmth rises in my chest spreading sunlight into the dark depths of my inner forest for the first time. It's the sweetest feeling I have ever known. Quinn loves me. After everything and accepting everything she loves me. I pull her into my arms and bury my head into her neck.
"I've fucking fought it but, I love you, Quinn." I murmur. She pulls back to look at me and I see it in her eyes. She doesn't believe me. "I can't stop loving you. You're all I think about, baby. You are all I dream about." I proclaim to her holding her in front of me trying not to shake her. "The thought of you with someone else feels like I'm slowly drowning in Galway Bay. My head goes under and all I can see is black, pure darkness. That's what life would be like without you." She stares up at me with her sparkling sapphire eyes and I fall in on myself. I combust with the pure light of it. "My love, my light, my Mo Cushile, I love you." I finally tell her and she crashes her lips to mine throwing her arms around me. "I love you." Quinn tells me again. "I know it might take some time for you to forgive some of my actions but I can't bring myself to regret meeting you. You have brought back some semblance of light into my life after decades of darkness. I never let myself care about anything until you came busting in." I say and can't help my big ass grin. "I busted in?" Quinn laughs at me and I smirk back at her. "You pursued me to the ends of the earth. I never had a chance." She says quietly gauging my reaction. My lips curl in a slow smile. "You're right about that. You never had a chance." I say and brush the hair back from her face. I meet quinn's eyes and tilt her chin to fully face me. "I will pursue you to the ends of the earth." I promise darkly, swimming in her sea stormy eyes. "In the short time I have known you, Quinn, you have quite literally put me back together again. I just glued myself shut and tried to forget. It's like you did the opposite, you mended and sewed me shut." I say to the love of my life. "You were never broken. You just needed someone to help light the way." quinn says warmly. The love radiating off her is palpable. It's easy to love around quinn. "I have lost so much; so many people. Loving anything again was just too much to bear." I tell her and she is crying soft sweet tears. "Loving you though finally letting myself love again was like someone lifting a brick off my chest. Like I could breathe for the first time in decades." I confess to her. "Let me in baby." Quinn says and leans into my embrace. Her unspoken request, she didn't mean her, quinn meant she wanted me to let her light in. "I will if you do." I say and flash her a wicked smile. I already have let her light in. It busted in unexpectedly and crushed every wall in its way. Her eyes light up like the sea at midnight and the shimmer I see there is dark. My queen has never wanted to admit her dark side or maybe she didn't know it was there. "I already have." quinn says passionately. The glint in her eyes tells me everything I need to know. "I want this, Cian. I want you. Nothing has ever felt so right. I want to rebuild what our families fought so hard for. I want to take back my name." I just stare at Quinn and soak in her confession. The energy around us is a swirling madness of lust, darkness and light. My sweet little Mo Cuishle is finally ready to be a part of my world. I will show her everything and we will face the future together. "Are you ready baby?" I ask, watching my queen with the intensity of a tiger. "I'm McNulty, I was born ready." She basically purrs as she straddles and pushes against me. I fall back on the desk I am leaning on and pull her up to straddle me on my lap. Quinns arms are twisted around my head and I claim her lips. I don't break away until I hear Quinn's stomach loudly gurgling with hunger pains. I smirk at her and she actually reddens a bit. Quinn never gets embarrassed. "It's okay if you're hungry. I am starving too, baby." I tell her. "Not just for dinner it looks like." Quinn says looking down at my erection. "Dessert first." She says and blatantly licks her lips. That is all the encouragement I need as I smile and stalk toward her.