𝐅𝐀𝐖𝐍•ᵉ ʲᵃᵉᵍᵉʳ

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𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚊𝚢, 𝚊𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚕 𝟸𝟾𝚝𝚑

"𝐈𝐌 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐘𝐎𝐔."
The words echo through my brain, vibrating inside my skull. They ring louder than the sound of the rain, louder than my heart pounding in my chest. I feel myself choking on rain, tears, and air, everything mixing into something that feels impossible to breathe through.

It's all I can hear, all I can feel.

I try to speak, to do something, but the words get stuck in my throat, tangled with all the pain and confusion. I want to scream at him, ask him why—why now, why after everything? I want to tell him I don't know what to do with this, what to do with him, with us. But all I can do is stand there, shivering in the downpour, my breath ragged, my head spinning.

I wish I could run, turn away, and let the rain wash everything away. But I'm frozen, caught between the storm and the weight of his confession.

Eren steps closer, his voice cracking as he calls out to me, his eyes wild with desperation.

"Y/N... you don't get it, do you?" He's shaking now, but it's not just from the cold. It's everything—everything building up inside him. "I—I can't keep pretending. I can't just walk away from this anymore, from you. You feel it too. I know you do."

His words come out broken, rough, as though each one is tearing him apart. He's not standing there like he's waiting for me to respond. He's pleading, begging with every ounce of his being for me to understand, to hear him.

"I need you, Y/N. I've needed you for so long. And I... I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I'm scared, okay? I don't know how to make this right, but I can't—I can't lose you."

His hands are trembling as he reaches out, not touching me yet, but just there, hovering, like he's afraid I'll disappear if he gets too close.

I want to say something. I want to scream, to shout, to yell all the words that have been trapped inside me for months. But all I can do is stand there, frozen, feeling the rain hitting me like stones, the cold soaking through my clothes and down to my bones.

"Please," he whispers, his voice barely audible now, a mix of frustration and heartbreak. His gaze never leaves mine, his eyes raw with emotion. "Please, don't walk away. Don't shut me out again. I can't... I can't keep doing this."

I feel something shift in me, something fragile cracking, like a dam finally breaking. I'm shaking now too, not from the cold but from the way his words are breaking me open. I want to pull away, I want to disappear into the storm and forget all of this—but I can't.

Because he's right. I feel it too. I've felt it all along.

I close my eyes, my chest tight with everything I'm holding back, and for a moment, everything goes still. The rain falls around us like it's washing away the distance between us, and I'm standing here, drowning in the feeling of him.

"I don't know what to say," I whisper, my voice raw, barely a breath. "I don't know what we are, Eren. I don't know how we got here."

Eren's face softens, but there's still so much pain in his eyes. "We're here. Right now, we're here," he says, voice thick with emotion. "And that's all I need. I don't need to know how we got here. I just need to know that you're with me. That you want this, too."